'Jealous! Oh no,' said Babiole with unexpected decision; and she
caught her breath as she went on rapidly. 'One may hate the people one
is jealous of, but one does not despise them. One may speak of them
bitterly and scornfully, but all the time one is almost praying to
them in one's heart to have mercy--to let go what they care for so
little, what one cares for one's self so much. One's coldness to a
person one is really jealous of is only a thin crust through which the
fire peeps and flashes out. Miss Farington was not jealous!'
It was easy enough to see that poor Babiole spoke from experience of
the passion; and this conviction filled me with rage against her
husband, and against myself for having brought about her marriage with
such an unappreciative brute. It is always difficult to realise
another person's neglect of a treasure you have found it hard to part
with; so I sat silently considering Fabian's phenomenal insensibility
for some minutes until at last I asked abruptly--
'Who did he make you jealous of?'
Babiole, who had also been deep in thought, started.
'Fabian?' said she in a low voice. Then, trying to laugh, she added
hastily, 'Oh, I was silly, I was jealous of everybody. You see I
didn't know anything, and because I thought of nobody but him, I
fancied he ought to think of nobody but me--which of course was
unreasonable.'
'I don't think so,' said I curtly. 'Unless I gave a woman all my
affection I shouldn't expect all hers.'
'Ah, _you_!' she exclaimed with a tender smile. 'There was the
mistake; without knowing it I had been forming my estimate of men on
what I felt to be true of you.' I did not look at her; but by the way
in which she hurried on after this ingenuous speech, I knew that a
sudden feeling of womanly shame at her impulsive frankness had set her
blushing. 'But really Fabian was quite reasonable,' she went on. 'He
only wanted me to give to him what he gave to me--or at least he
thought so,' she corrected.
'And what was that?'
'Well, just enough affection to make us amiable towards each other
when it was impossible to avoid a _tête-à-tête_.'
'But he can't have begun like that! He admired you, was fond of you.
No man begins by avoiding a bride like you!'
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