He leaned his head in his hand in a sort of broken-down, collapsed,
dogged way that moved her pity, though hardly her respect.
By-and-by it struck her as a very grave thing that he did not reply by
word, nor even by look. He could decide with a glance, and why did he
hesitate? Was he really balancing her against Mademoiselle Klosking
weighted with a share of his winnings?
This doubt was wormwood to her pride and self-respect; but his crushed
attitude allayed in some degree the mere irritation his doubt caused.
The minutes passed and the miles: still that broken figure sat before
her, with his face hidden by his white hand.
Zoe's courage began to falter. Misgivings seized her. She had made that a
matter of love which, after all, to a man, might be a mere matter of
business. He was poor, too, and she had thrust her jealousy between him
and money. He might have his pride too, and rebel against her affront.
As for his thoughts, under that crushed exterior, which he put on for a
blind, they were so deliberate and calculating that I shall not mix them
on this page with that pure and generous creature's. Another time will do
to reveal his sordid arithmetic. As for Zoe, she settled down into
wishing, with all her heart, she had not submitted her lover so
imperiously to a test, the severity of which she now saw she had
underrated.
Presently the speed of the train began to slacken--all too soon. She now
dreaded to learn her fate. Was she, or was she not, worth a few thousand
pounds ready money?
A signal-post was past, proving that they were about to enter a station.
Yet another. Now the wheels were hardly turning. Now the platform was
visible. Yet he never moved his white, delicate, womanish fingers from
his forehead, but remained still absorbed, and looked undecided.
At last the motion entirely ceased. Then, as she turned her head to
glean, if possible, the name of the place, he stole a furtive glance at
her. She was pallid, agitated. He resolved upon his course.
As soon as the train stopped, he opened the door and jumped out, without
a word to Zoe, or even a look.
Zoe turned pale as death. “I have lost him,” said she.
“No, no,” cried Fanny. “See, he has not taken his cane and umbrella.”
_“They_ will not keep him from flying to his money and her,” moaned Zoe.
“Did you not see? He never once looked at me. He could not. I am sick at
heart.”
This set Fanny fluttering. “There, let me out to speak to him.”
“Sit quiet,” said Zoe, sternly.
“No; no. If you love him--”
“I do love him--passionately. And _therefore_ I'll die rather than share
him with any one.”
“But it is dreadful to be fixed here, and not allowed to move hand or
foot.”
“It is the lot of women. Let me feel the hand of a friend, that is all;
for I am sick at heart.”
Fanny gave her her hand, and all the sympathy her shallow nature had to
bestow.
Zoe sat motionless, gripping her friend's hand almost convulsively, a
statue of female fortitude.
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