England -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Murder -- Fiction
"For worse as well as for better?" She had said the words before she
remembered her terrible dream--when the judge who was condemning her to
be hanged had upbraided her for not having fulfilled her wifehood; as
they escaped her lips she recollected, and shuddered. "You think me
better than I am, dearest! I am human--erring----"
"I--know--what you are!" he passionately exclaimed. He was plunged in a
lover’s fatuous ecstasy. It was half an hour before Joan could get away
to put on her habit. She meant to ride to Crouch Hill to hear her old
nurse’s opinion of what had occurred. Mrs. Todd had not known Victor’s
name--she would not have identified "The Southwark Mystery," as the
newspapers termed it, with herself and her wretched entanglements. She
would tell her that Victor was dead, and hear what she would say to it.
While she was dressing, Vansittart went back to his stables, and waiting
while the grooms equipped his now staid, but once almost too mettlesome
grey horse "Firefly," returned to find Joan’s pretty "Nora" waiting at
the door, held, as well as his own horse, by her groom. He had barely
dismounted when she issued from the house, a dainty Amazon from head to
foot, and tripped down the steps, smiling at him. "Why did you ride your
old grey?" she asked, as she sprang lightly into the saddle.
"Why?" he repeated, as he arranged her habit, and thrilled as he held
her little foot for one brief moment in his hand. "Because I am so
madly in love with you to-day that I cannot trust myself on any horse
but the soberest and most steady-going in the stables! I am
particularly anxious not to bring my ’violent delights’ to a ’violent
end’ by breaking my neck!"
They rode off through the sweet summer morning, he so bathed in actual
joy, as well as fired by the anticipatory delights of life with Joan for
his wife, that in his blissful mood he could have enwrapt the whole of
humanity in one vast embrace--Joan abandoning herself with all the force
of her will to the natural instincts that underlay all ordinary,
acquired emotions.
During her long self-colloquy she had deliberately burrowed, mentally,
below her civilized being, and sought these. She had told herself that
the primary instincts of woman were wifedom and motherhood. For the
present--until she was reassured anent her safety by time and the course
of events--she would listen to no others.
The two lovers--so near in seeming, so far asunder in reality, divided
as they were by a hideous secret--rode gleefully on, rejoicing in their
youth and love, making delicious plans for their future together,
gloating over their coming joys from different standpoints, but with
equal ardour.
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