"You came--you came to me!" I could see that she moved toward him, all
her magnificent body alight, her arms, her bosom. I turned quickly
through the door into the room beyond. I couldn't stay to see that. I
went on into my bedroom and knelt down, hiding my face in the
bedclothes. I think I meant to pray, but no words came. I rose presently
and went into the kitchen. The maid did not sleep in the flat but came
every morning at nine; on the table there was a tray as she left it
always, with everything laid out in case we should be hungry coming late
from the theatre. I moved about softly and made chocolate and sandwiches
and arranged them on the tray; I knew Sarah would understand. About half
an hour after I had gone to my room again, I heard her go out to find
it.
From time to time I could catch a faint murmur from the front room. I
put the pillow over my head and cried softly. I remembered how Griffin
had looked at her that time in Chicago when I had taken him to "The
Futurist," and how I had been ashamed ever to introduce him. I wondered
whether his real name were Lawrence or Griffin. I had fallen asleep at
last, and I was awakened by Sarah standing beside me in her white gown.
"May I sleep with you, Olivia? I've put ... Mr. Lawrence ... in my
room." I drew her under the cover with me; she was cold and now and then
a shudder passed through her from head to foot.
"You guessed, didn't you?" she whispered. "He said you knew him in
Chicago. His ... Mrs. Lawrence is dead ... you heard him say that?" I
understood she meant by that to extenuate his coming back to her. It was
right for him to come if no other woman stood in the way; what there was
in himself that stood in the way didn't seem to matter.
"He's been ill," she said. "I hope you didn't mind my keeping him in the
house, Olive.... We can be married to-morrow."
I sat straight up in bed in my amazement.
"Sarah! You don't mean that you are going to marry him!"
"Why, what else is there to do?"
"But, Sarah ..." I lay down again. After all what else was there to do?
"You know, Olivia, you have never really loved anybody." I had no answer
to that; suddenly she broke out shaking the bed with her sobs. "Oh, my
dear, my dear, it is true that he loved me. It is true. He came back to
me as soon as he was free. Oh, Olive, if you had known what it is all
these years not to know if it was _true_! If he hadn't only taken me
just as a stop-gap ... a fancy ... how was I to know?"
I didn't think very much of the proof that he loved her now. Sarah,
beautiful, prosperous, was a goal for any man to strive toward, even
without the necessity which was written in every line of Leon Griffin
Lawrence.
"Sarah," I questioned gently, "do you mean to say you've loved him all
this time, that you love him now?" She left off sobbing to answer me
with that steady, patient truth with which she met any issue of life.
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