"Oh, I'll believe it if it's any comfort to you." When I talked it over
with Jerry afterward I could see the queer, twisted kind of moral
standard by which he made it appear that any irregularity of his during
his wife's life, was unfaithfulness to her, and not Sarah.
She had come back with Jerry and I was walking with him to the City Hall
for the license; he had begun by protesting just as I had, and had
surrendered to his conviction that nothing less would satisfy Sarah.
"After all," I said, "it shows that there is some sort of harmony
between them, that he should realize that the only reparation he could
make would be to come back to her."
"Cur!" Jerry kicked at the pavement, "to pollute the life of a woman
like Sarah with his wretched existence."
"That's how you feel," I reminded him, "but remember how all these
years Sarah has felt polluted by the thought that she wasn't married to
him."
"Oh, _damn_!"
"Sarah thinks, and I'm beginning to think so too, that there is
something to marriage that binds besides the ceremony."
"I know." Jerry's wife had left him that summer and though he knew it
was the best thing for both of them, he was trying to get her back
again: "It binds of itself. If only they would tell us that in the
beginning instead of putting up all this stuff about its being the law
and religion. We think we can get out of it just by getting out of the
law, and none of us know better until it is too late."
"People like Sarah know. They know just the way swallows know to go
south in winter. You'll see; she will be happier married, not because it
is pleasant but because it is right."
They were married that afternoon in our apartment, and it was not until
I was settled in the hotel where I had elected to stay until I could
find suitable quarters, that I realized that the chance of this marriage
had accomplished for me the freedom that I had not known how to obtain
for myself.
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