For a long time now Forester had found himself in the situation of
having grown beyond his virtues. That assumption of mannishness which
sat so prettily on his nonage was rendered inconspicuous by his
majority. People who had forgotten that he had never had any boyhood,
found nothing especially commendable in the mild soberness of
twenty-three. I have a notion, too, that the happy circumstance of my
marriage lit up for him some personal phases which he could hardly have
regarded with complacence, for by this time he had passed, in his
character of philanderer, from being hopefully regarded as reclaimable
to constancy, to a sort of public understudy in the practice of the
affections. However it had come about, the young ladies who still took
on Forester at intervals, no longer looked on him so much as privileged
but as eminently safe; and the number of girls in a given community who
can be counted on for such a performance, is limited. That summer before
I was married, after Belle Endsleigh had run away from home with a
commercial traveller who disappointed the moral instance by making her a
very good husband afterward, my brother found himself, as regards the
young people's world, in a situation of uneasy detachment. And there was
no doubt that the Coöperative, where he had been seven years, bored him
excessively. It was then he conceived the idea of reinstating himself in
the atmosphere of importance by setting himself up in business.
Adjacent to Niles's Ice Cream Parlours, there was a small stationery and
news agency which might be bought and enlarged to creditable
proportions. There was, I believe, actually nothing to be urged against
this as a matter of business; the difficulty was that to accomplish it
my mother would be obliged to hypothecate the whole of her small
capital. What my mother really thought about her property was that she
held it in trust for the family interest, and that, with the secret
intimation of her end which I surmise must have reached her by this
time, she believed to be served by Forester's plan. It was so much the
general view that by marrying I took myself out of the family
altogether, that I felt convinced that she meant, so soon as that was
accomplished, to undertake what, in the face of my protesting attitude,
she had not the courage to begin. I remember how shocked she was at my
telling her that this tying up of the two ends of life in a monetary
obligation, would put her and Forester very much in the situation of a
young man married to a middle-aged woman. I mention this here because
the implication that grew out of it, of my marriage being looked forward
to as a relief, had much to do with the failure out of my life at this
juncture, of informing intimacy.
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