Children of the rich -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction
"You see," he said, "I was at Morgan's mercy, or he thought I was;
and, for a time, I thought so too; I was such a coward! And before
long I should have been wholly at his mercy, had not the sight of that
man, Clifford, roused me to a consciousness of what a coward I really
was; then I knew that the only way to be free was to tell the truth,
and let Morgan do what he likes. I've come to tell you the truth,
first of all; and to-morrow I'm going to tell Frank Clifford the
truth; and when I've found Miss Lindsay, I'll tell her the truth. If I
have to suffer for it, I'll suffer; but at any rate I've escaped from
Morgan. What a weight would have been off my mind if I'd escaped from
him before!"
As she began to grasp the drift of what it was that he was telling
her, she had sunk on to the edge of the bed, and, with distended eyes
and gaping mouth, sat staring at him as if at some thing of horror. He
mistook the meaning of her attitude.
"I don't wonder you look at me as if I were some repulsive object; I
couldn't be more repulsive to you than I am to myself; I understand
what you feel, what you think; I know I deserve it. I know you never
would have married me if you had known me to be the thing I am; I have
wronged you more than any one. I can't undo the bonds which bind us,
that is not in my power, and I'm afraid the law will not help you. But
this I can do, and I will; I'll take myself out of your life as
completely as I can. Your aunt left you enough to live on; I think you
had better sink it in an annuity; you'll be safer that way; and when I
can I'll contribute what I can. I don't wish to be released from any
of my obligations; on the contrary, I wish to fulfil them both in the
letter and the spirit, and I will. So soon as I am earning money you
shall have your proper share; but in any case it will be a comfort to
me to feel that, in any case, you are provided for. And, in time, when
I've done something towards regaining my self-respect, and--and you
send for me, I'll come to you again, if only for just long enough to
show that I am still alive. But you're rid of me till then. Good-bye."
He moved towards the door, as if the whole thing was at an end; as if
husband and wife could be sundered quite so easily. She stopped him as
he was going.
"Herbert!" She spoke in the queerest whisper, as if something had gone
wrong with her vocal chords, the effect of which was to leave her
partially strangled. She held out the telegram she had still in her
hand. "Look at that."
He took it reluctantly, as if he feared it was a weapon which she
aimed at him. Glancing at it, he read it aloud.
"'Send another five hundred immediately. No excuses will be accepted.
'MORGAN.'
What--what does this mean?"
"It means that I'm worse than you; much worse than you."
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