Criminals -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Siblings -- Fiction
"Nothing, Gerald--for the present--further than I think you had better
go to bed."
"Oh, that's just like you--after you have riled a chap. 'Pon my soul,
Miriam, you're the most exasperating woman I know. You're always ready
to go for me; you take precious good care, though, not to tell me much
about yourself."
"You know everything about me, Gerald."
"No, I don't. That Jabez business is precious queer. Who is he?--what is
he to you I should like to know?"
"Jabez is not unlike yourself--a weakling and an ingrate. I tried to
save him from himself, as I have tried to save you."
"Oh, you seem to be a pretty old hand at experimenting with men. I don't
believe you're any better than you ought to be!"
The drink had mounted to his brain now, and he was quite beside himself.
As Miriam left the room, she saw him pour out another half-tumbler of
spirit.
"I shall sleep in the small bedroom to-night," she said. "You will
probably sleep on the floor."
It was not the first time she had occupied that little room. Indeed, the
number of occasions upon which she had been forced to do so, had been
increasing all too frequently of late. She had made a huge mistake--she
recognised it now. With such a man as this there could be no sense of
security, hence no real happiness, though the sun of prosperity shone
ever so brightly. With the pitying love of an angel she had put out her
strong arm to pluck him from destruction. And for a time she had
succeeded. But now he was eluding her grasp. The instinct within him was
too strong for her to combat. His employer would soon come to complain
of him. And then the end would soon be. Already he complained of her.
Her very virtues were fast becoming faults in his eyes. But even now it
was not of herself she thought, though her intellect was being starved,
and her soul was sick with the sorrow of despair. No longer could she
feel any hope for the future--for his future. Worn out and utterly
dejected, she threw herself on the bed in the bare little room, and
cried herself to sleep.
Next morning Gerald rose late, and, it seemed, repentant. In truth, he
rose from the floor which had been his bed that night. He took a cold
bath, and so braced up his shattered nerves a trifle. She received him
with a smile, and made no reference to what had been. He apologised, and
she forgave him, and there the thing ended--for the time. She alone knew
how her heart ached. It was Sunday. He went to church, and rebuked her
because she said she felt unable to accompany him. From the window she
watched him, smartly dressed and for all the world the most punctilious
of men. His tendencies were strongly ritualistic. He would probably
confess his sins and take holy vows about the future. But the future
would be no better than the past for all that.
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