Catholics -- Fiction; Clergy -- Fiction; France -- Fiction; Sin -- Christianity -- Fiction
‘I love you; indeed I love you,’ said Serge, in his calm, quiet voice.
‘If I did not love you, I should not be here: I should not have come.
I am very weary, it is true. I don’t know why. I thought I should find
that pleasant warmth again, of which the mere memory was so delightful.
But I am cold, the garden seems quite black. I cannot see anything of
what I left here. But it is not my fault. I am trying hard to be as you
would wish me and to please you.’
‘You love me no longer!’ Albine repeated once more.
‘Yes, I do love you. I suffered grievously the other day after I had
driven you away.... Oh! I loved you with such passion that, had you come
back and thrown yourself in my arms, I should almost have crushed you
to death.... And for hours your image remained present before me. When
I shut my eyes, you gleamed out with all the brightness of the sun and
threw a flame around me.... Then I trampled down every obstacle, and
came here.’
He remained silent for a moment, as if in thought. Then he spoke again:
‘And now my arms feel as though they were broken. If I tried to clasp
you, I could not hold you; I should let you fall.... Wait till this
shudder has passed away. Give me your hands, and let me kiss them again.
Be gentle and do not look at me with such angry eyes. Help me to find my
heart again.’
He spoke with such genuine sadness, such evident longing to begin
the past anew, that Albine was touched. For a moment all her wonted
gentleness returned to her, and she questioned him anxiously:
‘What is the matter with you? What makes you so ill?’
‘I do not know. It is as though all my blood had left my veins. Just
now, as I was coming here, I felt as if some one had flung a robe of ice
around my shoulders, which turned me into stone from head to foot.... I
have felt it before, but where I don’t remember.’
She interrupted him with a kindly laugh.
‘You are a child. You have caught cold, that’s all. At any rate, it is
not I that you are afraid of, is it? We won’t stop in the garden during
the winter, like a couple of wild things. We will go wherever you like,
to some big town. We can love each other there, amongst all the people,
as quietly as amongst the trees. You will see that I can be something
else than a wilding, for ever bird’s-nesting and tramping about for
hours. When I was a little girl, I used to wear embroidered skirts and
fine stockings and laces and all kinds of finery. I dare say you never
heard of that.’
He was not listening to her. He suddenly gave vent to a little cry, and
said: ‘Ah! now I recollect!’
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