Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“And did you make use of them, I wonder, Miss Trevennon? Do you know
just how you look, in that beautiful soft gown, with the lovely white
fur around your neck and arms? I should fancy it might tempt one to the
mermaid fashion of carrying a mirror at the girdle.”
He smiled as he spoke--a resolute, odd smile that had little merriment
in it.
“What have you been doing, all this time?” she asked, wishing to lead
the conversation away from herself.
“Working,” he answered; “writing letters--doing sums--drawing plans.”
“How you love your work!” she said.
“Yes, I love my work, thank God!” he answered, in a fervid tone. “It
has been my best friend all my life, and all my dreams for the future
are in it now.”
“You love it almost too much, I think. It takes you away from
everything else. Do you mean to work in this way always? Have you no
other visions of the future?”
“Oh, I have had visions!” he said, thrusting his hands into the
pockets of his sack-coat, and bracing himself against the end of the
mantel, while he looked at her steadily as he spoke. “I have had
visions--plenty of them! They mostly took the form of very simple,
quiet dreams of life; for I have already told you, Miss Trevennon,
by what a very demon of domesticity I am haunted. The sweetest
of all thoughts to me is that of home--a quiet life, with a dear
companion--that would be my happiness. Exterior things would be very
unimportant.”
He seemed to rouse himself, as if from some sort of lethargy which he
dreaded, and, standing upright, he folded his arms across his breast,
and went on:
“But if I had this vision once, I have put it from me now, and only the
old routine remains--business and reading and a half-hearted interest
in society. There is music, but that I mistrust; it brings the old
visions back, and shows me the loneliness of a life in which they can
have no part. So it is no wonder, is it, that I call my work my best
friend?”
Poor, poor Margaret! Her heart sank lower and lower, and when he
finished with this calmly uttered question, a little shudder ran
through her.
“I am cold,” she said, rising; “I must go.”
He went and brought her white wrap from where she had thrown it on a
chair, and with one of his peculiarly protecting motions he threw it
around her. Then, gathering the soft folds in his hands on each side,
he drew them close across her breast, and held them so a moment, as he
said:
“Yes, Margaret, you must go. And it is not for the night, nor for the
season, nor even for the year; it is forever. What would you say to me,
if you knew we were never to see each other again?”
“Most likely we never shall,” she said, speaking in a cold, vacant way.
“And what will you say to me? What will you give me to remember?”
“I can only say good-bye,” she answered in the same dull tone.
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