Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“It isn’t the first time I’ve advised you to take lessons from the
Yankees,” said Margaret; “and as to Mr. Gaston’s being conceited,
I really think he’s less so than you are, Charley, though he knows
much more. As to his being a Yankee--well, yes, he is a Yankee, as we
should say, and he’s a very capable and accomplished one. And as to the
third point, of his being a dandy, you know very well he is simply a
remarkably well-dressed man, whose appearance in your heart you admire,
in spite of your tall talking. But what’s the use of all this? It
isn’t dress, nor nationality, nor deportment even, that makes the man.
Superficially, you two are very unlike, but I think the discrepancy as
to your real natures is by no means so great. You are a pair of true
and honorable gentlemen at heart--at least, I believe Mr. Gaston to be
such, and I know you are, Charley.”
She spoke in a tone of great gentleness for she knew that, before this
interview ended, she must say words which would bruise his poor heart
cruelly, and it was a kind and honest heart, which had long cherished
for her a true and steadfast devotion By degrees she led him on to a
quieter mood, and spoke to him gravely and earnestly of their future
lives--his and hers--which, as she gently tried to show him, must needs
lie apart. He had heard her utter these sad words before, but there was
a difference--an absolute resolve in looks and tones that compelled him
to realize that this time they were final. And yet she had never been
so gentle and so kind.
“I think too highly of you, Charley,” she said, when their interview
was drawing to a close, “to believe that you will let this feeling for
me ruin your life. There is so much a man may do! The very thought of
it is tantalizing to a woman sometimes. Oh, Charley, be in earnest. It
is all you lack. Do something--no matter what, so it is _work_, and do
it faithfully and well. I think that, in itself, would make you almost
happy. But don’t think about happiness. Indeed, I think that does not
signify so very much. Think only of filling your place in the world and
doing your duty to God and man, and happiness will come of itself.”
When she sent him from her at last, the hope which had until now lived
in his bosom was quite, quite dead, never to revive again; and yet,
with the relinquishment of that hope, a new life seemed to spring up
within him, which made him resolve, before he left her presence, that
he would win her approval though he could never win her love. He knew
he could not feel that he had ever possessed her entire approbation,
and it was well worth striving for--better, he said to himself,
as many another good man has said, in those first moments of sad
renunciation, than another woman’s love.
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