Ada, the Betrayed; Or, The Murder at the Old Smithy. A Romance of PassionRymer, James Malcolm
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Ada, the Betrayed; Or, The Murder at the Old Smithy. A Romance of Passion
Rymer, James Malcolm
English fiction -- 19th century; Penny dreadfuls
“I—I thought I heard a noise,” he muttered; “but I have thought so
often, when ’twas nothing. Ada is here; I am not quite alone; should I
see anything, I—I could scream, and then she might come, perchance, to
exult in my agony; but there would be protection in her
presence—because—because she is—innocent.—Innocent!—Oh, God! Why am I
not innocent? Is all this world and its enjoyments a gross delusion,
for which I have bartered all the essence and foundation of all
joy—peace!”
For many minutes he remained silent, and the nervous twitching of his
countenance betrayed the disturbed condition of his mind. Then he spoke
quickly and nervously.
“I must not give way to thoughts like these,” he said; “they will drive
me mad. Yes, murder lies that way. I must go on now;—the path I have
chosen is one which there is no retracing. ’Tis as if a wall of adamant
followed close behind, to prevent one backward step. I am committed to
the course I have taken;—to pause is madness. I must go on—I must go
on! But I will spare you, Ada, if I can.”
The sound of a distant clock, sounding the hour of twelve, now came
upon the night air, and Jacob Gray listened to the faint moaning tones
of the bell until all was still again, and no sound broke the solemn
stillness but the agitated beating of his own heart.
“Midnight!” he said. “’Tis midnight! I will now endeavour to snatch a
few hours’ repose; I have fatigued myself now for many hours, with the
hope that the body’s weariness might lull the mind’s agony. Agony! I—do
I call it agony! Is that all I have purchased by—crimes?”
He lifted the light, as he spoke, and its feeble rays fell upon the
glittering heap of gold that lay before him. A ghastly smile played
across the pale countenance of Jacob Gray.
“I have gained something,” he said, as he laid his thin, cold hand upon
the gold. “Yes, I have gained these—these pieces of bright metal, that
will exchange for honours—service—gay attire—enchanting music—nay, they
will buy what men affect not to sell—opinion. There may be some pure
state of society, in which, when speaking of a man, the question may
be, ‘What is he?’ But here—here, in civilized, moral, intellectual
England, the question is, ‘What has he?’ These,” he continued, running
his hand among the guineas; “these even will purchase prayers to
Heaven; petitions to God from the good, the saintly, and the pious.
Gold, I love thee—but now to bed—to bed!”
He carefully placed his treasure in its recent receptacle at the back
of the cupboard, and then with a faltering step, and a shifting glance
of fear, he repaired to his own chamber, which was near to Ada’s room.
In his progress he passed the door of the dormitory of his victim—he
paused a moment, and listened attentively. Then in a voice of deep
anguish he said,—
“She can sleep—she can sleep—no ghostly vision scares slumber from her
eyes—while—”
He shuddered, and passed a step or two on, then pausing again, he said,—
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