"An old acquaintance!" he says, making a mock salutation to it; "it is
in better order than when last I had the pleasure of seeing it."
"Do you mean in Florence?" she asks, very slowly.
"Yes"--still with that acrid smile--"after you were gone, I had the
honour of helping to pack it to send after you. I am afraid I was rather
clumsy over it; but, at any rate, I managed better than he. By-the-bye,
did you find any rust on your scissors and thimble when next you had
occasion to use them? Poor boy! he cried enough over them to take all
the polish off!"
She has sunk down upon the sofa, over which a great woollen _haik_, dyed
with harmonious dull tints, is thrown.
"Do not sneer at me!" she says faintly. "You would not if you knew how
you hurt me. Is he--is he--how is he?"
"He is not ill."
The answer ought to be reassuring; but there is something in the manner
in which it is uttered that tells her that it neither is, nor is meant
to be so. It is so ominous that her lips, after a feeble effort or two,
give up the endeavour to frame any query. All her power of interrogation
has passed into those eyes, out of which her companion has been so
brilliantly successful in chasing their transient morning mirth.
"When a man," says Jim gravely, "at the outset of his life, gets such a
facer as he did, if he has not a very strong character, it is apt to
drive him off the rails, to give him a shove downwards."
"I see; and you think I have given him a shove downwards?"
"Yes."
There is a pause. Jim's eyes are resolutely turned away from the face of
Elizabeth, upon whose small white area twitches of pain are making cruel
disfigurement. He does not want to have his heart softened towards her,
so he stares persistently over her head at a Mussulman praying-carpet,
which, old and still rich-toned, despite the wearing of pious knees,
hangs on the wall. At length she speaks, in a key as low as--were not
the room so entirely still--would be inaudible.
"If I had married him, I should have given him a much worse shove down."
Jim holds his breath. Is he about to hear from her own lips that secret
which he has magnanimously resisted all opportunities of hearing from
other sources? But the words that, after a pause, follow this almost
whispered statement are not a confession. They are only an appeal.
"You would be doing the kindest thing that you ever did in your life, if
you could bring yourself to say that you thought I did it for the best."
He feels that if he submits his eyes to hers, his will must go with
them; he will have no power left of dissent from any request she may
choose to make; so he still stares over her head at a screen which hides
the doorless entrance to the third room of the little suite. One leaf,
folded back, gives a peep through the little chamber, through its
deep-arched window to where a date-palm stands up straight against the
sea.
"I could not possibly say that unless I knew the circumstances of the
case," he answers judicially.
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