She is down in the world; there can be no mistake about that. Even her
father, who has returned from his wanderings, must be aware of this
fact. Perhaps that is the reason why he no longer snubs her as much as
he did; why he even accepts, with some semblance of graciousness, those
affectionate and watchful ministrations which she tenders him with as
gentle an assiduity as in her brighter days. But he has still no great
appetite for her society; and she, unresentfully divining it, gives up
to him, without repining, the one great solace of her melancholy--her
mother's company. If Jim were gone, the more part of her life would be
spent alone. She tells him so--tells him, with a sweet flattering smile,
how much his comradeship is to her. Has he any right to rob her of that
last prop? It is only to himself that the breathless clamberings up the
steep short cut to El Biar, deep and brambly as her own Devonshire
lanes, that the gazings in common over the pigeon-necked sea and the
amaranth hills, can do any harm. They may put a sting into his own
after-life--a sting that all the empty years that follow may be
powerless to extract; but to her they serve only as a narcotic to numb
the intensity of that ache which the cured madness of Byng has left
behind it. Some day, of course, he must leave her; he cannot pass his
whole life at her side; some day soon leave her to walk and sit and
study her Italian Grammar forlornly alone. But it must not be until she
has a little plucked up her spirits.
As soon as he sees any signs of this occurring, he will quit
Algiers--quit it comfortably, with the consciousness of having done a
good-natured thing, by which nobody is the worse. This is the compromise
at which he arrives with the inward adviser--conscience, common-sense,
what you will--that is hourly admonishing him to be gone. Does Elizabeth
guess that her retention of the companion, to whom she so desolately
clings, hangs on her remaining always as crushed as the first ten days
after those cruel interviews with the Byngs, mother and son, had left
her? If she did, she would probably seek to check the first faint
revivings of cheerfulness in her inveterately gay spirit. Instead, while
her heart is yet at its sickest, she earnestly tries to foster the tiny
seeds of cheerfulness, saying to herself that it is mere selfishness in
her to inflict her dismalness upon her one friend; seeking rather to
lift his spirits, which seem scarcely less drooping than her own.
Does he enter into her motive? Does not it rather strike him with a
species of shock how superficial must be the nature, how on the surface
the suffering, of one who can already begin again to take a mischievous
interest in the Widow Wadman's amours, and to mimic afresh the Cockney
twang of the French Vicomte's English governess?
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