To Mr. Lacy, this was coaxingly playful; but the fiery spot came to
Ida's cheek, at words, which had been piped over, and distorted, until
malice itself must be weary of repeating them.
"I beg you to consider my refusal as final and positive;" she said,
haughtily. Mr. Lacy bowed, with dignity, and returned to Josephine.
"Am I, also, to be refused?" asked Lynn, as Josephine picked out a
third song. "You will not suspect me of empty compliments."
"Not for you, will I sing now and _here_!" said Ida. "Be sure I have my
reasons for objecting to give you pleasure."
"Be quiet, Lynn! she means what she says;" interrupted Charley, as his
friend persisted. Lynn obeyed, but his black eyes went from the face of
the speaker, to Ida's compressed lips, until they darted an angry light
upon Josephine, showing that he had an inkling of the truth.
"This is the beginning!" said Ida, as she knelt at her window to gain
tranquillity from the cool and stillness of the night. The moon neared
the horizon; the roof-tops contrasted brightly with the shade of the
street; and one lofty spire pointed a snowy finger upward, the golden
trumpet upon its taper extremity silvered by the pale rays. It was
a "sweet south" that bore up the lullaby our beautiful river sings
nightly to her myriads of sleeping children; but as the girl gazed and
listened, inquietude, instead of peace, had possession of her--the
nameless longing that makes mortals weep and strive, and die! that
burning craving for something--they cannot tell what--except that
earth does not bestow it, and the spirit will not rest without it. It
may be, angel-teachers are with us, awakening a desire for, rather
than imparting knowledge, which is their food, and can alone satisfy
our immortal minds--or our young souls are fluttering their unfledged
wings, restless for the flight, instinct tells them is before them--we
know not--only that the thirst is fierce--maddening! and there is but
one fountain which quenches it. The river's song should have summoned
up the vision of those living waters, and their wooing, "Let him that
is athirst come!" and the white spire--had its silent gesture no
significance?
Ida's thoughts did not rise. A painful truth had that night obtruded
itself upon her, that the love of those she esteemed most, had not
strengthened her to bear the trials incident to her position. With
Carry at her side, to defend and console, many a shaft would have
fallen harmless, perchance, unremarked; in her absence, the certainty
of her affection did not render Josephine's malevolence innocuous, or
her society endurable.
"I was not born for this life! I do not breathe in the penthouse in
which they would immure my soul. I cannot escape! I am virtually
a prisoner in body and spirit--with energies, which must not
act--affections, which must not flow! I thirst for liberty and love!"
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