She tried to treat them alike, but
her regrets at losing them were addressed to Alice; and if they were
heartfelt, the sigh of relief, with which she turned the bolt after
them, was equally sincere.
The bridal festivities were not over until after Christmas, but Ida
avoided further participation in them by spending holiday week at
Mr. Dana's. She was invited expressly to meet Carry and Arthur, and,
although the precedence belonged to them, as more unfrequent visitors,
she was installed in the seat of honour as chief guest. Carry inveighed
against Mr. Read's marriage, and was anxious to learn whether it would
render her position more unpleasant. Ida thought not:--her heart said
this could hardly be, but she spoke hopefully of the wholesome check
Mrs. Read's elegant propriety would be upon Josephine's brusqueness.
"They will not agree at first, for Mrs. Read, if she does appear too
fond of her ease to contend, is not deficient in resolution; yet the
end may be mutual endurance and forbearance. In any event I shall
remain neutral. Who knows, Carry, but, unpromising as the field is, I
may do as well as suffer, even there?"
They were alone in Carry's room. "There is one subject, upon which I
wish to speak to you;" said the latter, seriously. "Has Arthur said
anything to you of himself?"
"No--not particularly."
"He was always too good for me," pursued Carry. "You need not hold up
your finger so threateningly--but for a year past, I felt that he was
growing better, while I made no progress. After we were married, I
discovered that he was in the habit of the daily study of his Bible,
and secret prayer. I did not hint that I knew it, for it was too
sacred a matter for me to touch. Ida! I suffered! he had a care which
I could not share--was ill at ease, and I must not cheer him. When
you wrote, recounting the alteration of your views and prospects, he
unsealed his heart to me. He had long sought peace, without finding
it; but latterly, had experienced a glimmering hope he feared to
divulge, so faint was it--that he was a child of God. I wept for joy
and grief--joy, for I was sure, although he was not, that he was a
Christian;--and grief at my own hardness of heart. His light has burned
brighter and brighter every day; and he is prepared now to avow it to
his friends and the world. He says your fearlessness, in declaring
your principles, filled him with shame, and urged him to emulate your
example."
Here was one sheaf--an earnest of whitening harvest. The barrenness of
opportunities for serving and honouring her Redeemer, was a troublesome
stumbling-block. Her sphere of usefulness was so limited; and she had
talents, which might be deployed to some purpose in a larger arena.
The glowing zeal of a young convert called for action. In a moment
of discontent with herself, and perhaps with her situation, she had
expressed this to Charley, who silenced her with one line--
"'They also serve, who only stand and wait.'"
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