Amethyst: The Story of a BeautyColeridge, Christabel R. (Christabel Rose)
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Amethyst: The Story of a Beauty
Coleridge, Christabel R. (Christabel Rose)
England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"I never ought to have lost patience with a girl like you, and I ought
to have known you better. But I was too young and stupid, it was a
dreadful thing to me when I knew I had wronged you--had been so wrong--
and couldn't make up for it. And when I saw you again, I knew I had
never thought enough of you, though I loved you so much."
"Oh, Lucian--no--"
"If we'd married, I suppose I should have learned in time. But I should
have made mistakes and vexed you, I wasn't fit to guide you. I should
always have thought I knew best Well, then, you see it has all been for
the best, and I want to tell you, that if I hadn't had the loving, and
the getting to understand you, and the trying to get on without you, it
would have been much worse for me now. And so, as that poor little old
time has helped me to die better, it seemed to me that perhaps the
thought of it might make your life better for you--at least to know what
you have done for me."
"Oh, Lucian, that's not quite it. Why was I such a wicked girl as to
forget you? It wasn't because I was angry. If I had been faithful
too--you might--we might--"
"No, dear," said Lucian. "That's what I want to show you. You
couldn't--you wanted more than I had got to give you. That's what I
found out. You'll have it some day, and then you won't feel I did you
nothing but harm."
"Oh," said Amethyst, with streaming tears, "I shall always--I shall
always feel--_glorified_ by your having loved me--_so_."
He got hold of her hand, and held it gently in both his own, and when
she was a little calmer, he said--
"Tell me about your troubles."
"They're not worth it," she said, "hard, sordid money troubles--things
that are hateful. And the wrong things I do--and feel--and think."
"I think there'll be better times for you," said Lucian; then he smiled,
and said, "As there will be soon for me."
"If--if you could but get better--"
Lucian gave her the strangest look.
"Oh, no," he said, quietly, and then, with a little more of his usual
manner--
"I'm sorry to have made you cry. But I think you'll like by and by to
know I quite understood. Now there's just one thing more."
He took hold of a gold locket that hung from his watch chain, and opened
it slowly, then took out of it the broad gipsy ring, set with a big
amethyst and two diamonds--the very ring that his boyish taste had
thought both handsome and symbolical enough to give his betrothed.
"Let me give it you back," he said. "Perhaps you won't like to wear it
now; but, when you put another ring on your finger, let this be a guard
to it. That's my fancy."
"Oh, Lucian! Put it on--I never--never shall--"
"I think you will," he said. "I _hope_ you will." He took her warm
young hand, and, with his weak fingers, put on the ring, and back upon
them both came the joyous moment when he had first put it on, and "all
the world was young."
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