Her head throbbed with pain, and her hands were hot and feverish, as she
seated herself before the organ and began to play. But with the first
sounds responding to her touch, she ceased to think of bodily discomfort.
The music was the voice of her own soul, uttering to God all its
desolation, its anguish and its despair. Then suddenly, with no seeming
volition of her own, it changed to a passion of human love, human desire;
the sorrow of separation, the strife with the emotions, the agony of
renunciation were all there; and the November rain, beating in wild gusts
against the window-panes behind the musician, lent a fitting
accompaniment to the strains.
She had been playing for perhaps an hour, when a sudden exhaustion seized
upon her, and her hands fell nerveless and inert upon her lap; she
dropped her chin upon her breast and closed her eyes. She was drunken
with her own music.
When she opened them again a few moments later, they fell upon the face
of Arthur Stuart, who stood a few feet distant regarding her with haggard
eyes. Unexpected and strange as his presence was, Joy felt neither
surprise nor wonder. She had been thinking of him so intensely, he had
been so interwoven with the music she had been playing, that his bodily
presence appeared to her as a natural result. He was the first to speak;
and when he spoke she noticed that his voice sounded hoarse and broken,
and that his face was drawn and pale.
“I came to Beryngford this morning expressly to see you, Joy,” he said.
“I have many things to say to you. I went to your residence and was told
by the maid that I would find you here. I followed, as you see. We have
had many meetings in church edifices, in organ lofts. It seems natural
to find you in such a place, but I fear it will be unnatural and
unfitting to say to you here, what I came to say. Shall we return to
your home?”
His eyes shone strangely from dusky caverns, and there were deep lines
about his mouth.
“He, too, has suffered,” thought Joy; “I have not borne it all alone.”
Then she said aloud:
“We are quite undisturbed here; I know of nothing I could listen to in my
room which I could not hear you say in this place. Go on.”
He looked at her silently for a moment, his cheeks pale, his breast
heaving. Before he came to Beryngford, he had fought his battle between
religion and human passion, and passion had won. He had cast under his
feet every principle and tradition in which he had been reared, and
resolved to live alone henceforth for the love and companionship of one
human being, could he obtain her consent to go with him.
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