The lioness at any rate wanted nothing for herself. "No, love. I shall
remain here among my rocks, and shall be happy if I hear that you are
happy."
"But you won't part us altogether,--will you, Fred?"
"No, love."
"I knew he wouldn't. And mother may come to your grand house and creep
into some pretty little corner there, where I can go and visit her, and
tell her that she shall always be my own, own, own darling mother."
He felt that he must put a stop to this in some way, though the doing
of it would be very dreadful. Indeed in the doing of it the whole of
his task would consist. But still he shirked it, and used his wit in
contriving an answer which might still deceive without being false in
words. "I think," said he, "that I shall never live at any grand house,
as you call it."
"Not live at Scroope?" asked Mrs. O'Hara.
"I think not. It will hardly suit me."
"I shall not regret it," said Kate. "I care nothing for a grand house. I
should only be afraid of it. I know it is dark and sombre, for you have
said so. Oh, Fred, any place will be Paradise to me, if I am there with
you."
He felt that every moment of existence so continued was a renewed lie.
She was lying in his arms, in her mother's presence, almost as his
acknowledged wife. And she was speaking of her future home as being
certainly his also. But what could he do? How could he begin to tell the
truth? His home should be her home, if she would come to him,--not as
his wife. That idea of some half-valid morganatic marriage had again
been dissipated by the rough reproaches of the priest, and could only be
used as a prelude to his viler proposal. And, though he loved the girl
after his fashion, he desired to wound her by no such vile proposal. He
did not wish to live a life of sin, if such life might be avoided. If he
made his proposal, it would be but for her sake; or rather that he might
show her that he did not wish to cast her aside. It was by asserting to
himself that for her sake he would relinquish his own rank, were that
possible, that he attempted to relieve his own conscience. But, in the
mean time, she was in his arms talking about their joint future home!
"Where do you think of living?" asked Mrs. O'Hara in a tone which shewed
plainly the anxiety with which she asked the question.
"Probably abroad," he said.
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