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Her eyes wandered wildly around the room, and at last, reassured by a
sight of familiar objects, lost their look of affright.
“It must have been a dream,” she said, “but so very real. I was lying
under the elm tree at home, as I so often did when a child; yet I was
as I am now. Close about me came a little company of people shining
like the sun. When they were very near, I knew them to be people from
my planet--my own people, whom I remember well, and whom I saw in a
dream years ago. One, a woman, the most beautiful of all, had a face
so familiar I almost spoke her name; but I could not quite grasp it,
though she seemed very near and dear to me.
“‘Your work is done,’ she said; and there was sadness in her voice, and
pity in her eyes.
“‘Well done?’ I questioned, though with a sinking of the heart, for I
began to be afraid, I knew not why.
“‘Did you always do your best?’ she asked.
“‘No;’ I answered, conscience-smitten.
“‘Then’--
“I interrupted, for I could not bear to hear what I feared she would
say.
“‘Who art thou, who look so pitiful and seem so dear, and whom I yet
fear?’ I asked.
“‘I am thine Ideal--thine Angel of Judgment--who hath so often come to
thee and from whom thou hast almost as often turned away.’
“‘But I serve you now,’ I cried. ‘I do my best. I have learned my
lesson.’
“‘Yes, you have learned the lesson, and will do better next time,’ she
said, compassionately.
“‘Next time?’ I echoed, trembling with fear.
“‘Yes; next time, for you must come again and do it over and do it
right,’ she said, sternly.
“Then I shrieked and awoke. O Lilla, now I see, I know, I understand.
I must live my life again and live it better--must do my best all the
way through. I don’t want to--no; I don’t want to; but I must, and so
must all who fail to give their best--not as penalty, but because it is
the only way to learn, and to grow.
“We have lived always; we shall live always. This is the foundation
rock upon which we build the indestructible temple, character. Victor
Hugo spoke of life as a fairy tale a thousand times written, and said
there was not an age in which he could not find his spirit. He believed
he would exist forever, inasmuch as he felt in his soul thousands of
songs, and dramas that never had found expression: He was sure he
should come again and give them life. I, too, feel within me numberless
tales untold which must be born somewhere. A great soul, like Hugo, may
voluntarily come again and again to help others; but a recreant dreamer
like me MUST come.
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