An open verdict : $b a novel, volume 1 (of 3)Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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An open verdict : $b a novel, volume 1 (of 3)
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
This happened about a fortnight before Christmas, and at a time when
Miss Scratchell’s duties at the Park were in a considerable degree
suspended. She would not have been wanted there at all, under ordinary
circumstances, for the young Pipers, who had a frank detestation of
all kinds of learning, claimed a holiday at this season, and had their
claim allowed. But Mrs. Piper was ill, so ill as to be confined to her
own room; and in this juncture she found Isabella’s domestic talents of
use to her, and, without any extra remuneration, contrived to occupy a
good deal of Isabella’s time.
A little while ago, when she was living in her fool’s paradise,
believing herself loved by Cyril Culverhouse, this encroachment upon
her leisure would have been aggravating in the extreme to Bella
Scratchell. But just now it was rather a relief than otherwise, for
it gave her an excuse for neglecting her cottagers. She went among
them still, now and then, and was sweet and sympathetic as of old,
reading favourite chapters of St. John to the consumptive dressmaker,
or carrying a bunch of wintry flowers to the wheelwright’s bed-ridden
daughter, a patient victim to spinal complaint; but, so far as
it was possible, she avoided meeting Cyril. There was too keen a
shame, too fierce an agony in the thought of her delusion. In this
innocent seeming Dresden china beauty there existed a capacity for
passionate feeling, unsuspected by her kindred or friends. From love
to vindictiveness was only a step in this intense nature. She hated
Mrs. Dulcimer for having entrapped her--she hated herself for having
fallen so easily into so petty a snare. She hated Cyril for not loving
her--she hated him still more for loving somebody else--and she hated
Beatrix Harefield most of all for being the object of his love.
‘Has she not enough of the good things of this life without taking him
from me?’ she thought savagely, forgetting that as Cyril had never
belonged to her, Beatrix could hardly be charged with robbery.
‘He would have cared for me if he had never seen her,’ argued Bella.
‘She is handsomer than I am--grand and noble looking--while I am small
and mean.’
Vanity and self-esteem were alike crushed by Cyril’s indifference. She
had been vain of her pink and white prettiness hitherto. Now she looked
at herself in the glass, and scorned her trivial beauty--the blue eyes
and light brown lashes--the indefinite eyebrows, the blunt inoffensive
little nose--the rose-bud mouth, and coquettish dimples. A beauty to
catch fools perhaps; but of no value in the eyes of a man of character,
like Cyril Culverhouse.
She bore her burden quietly, being very proud, after her small manner,
and no one in that noisy home circle of Mr. Scratchell’s discovered
that there was anything amiss in the eldest daughter of the house.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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