Hungary -- History -- Revolution, 1918-1919 -- Personal narratives; Tormay, Cécile, 1876-1937 -- Diaries
Two peculiarities in the life and the manners of old people have become
clear to me lately.
In our generation it has never mattered much who over-heard what one
said. We are accustomed to speak openly. The security in which we lived
until lately made our opinions free and gave our age its undisciplined
character. I have often noticed that my mother and people of her age
speak in lower tones than we do, and more discreetly. They were bred in
times when there was always someone unwanted listening. The spy system
of Austrian absolutism taught them to be cautious. My mother has often
remarked: “You would talk of anything before anybody.” I used to think
that this restraint was the outcome of the educational principles of a
more refined age. But since the present illegal government, afraid for
its power, has taken to watching us with spies and _agents-provocateurs_,
I have realised that the superior, reserved expression of our elders is
not merely the outcome of a more aristocratic spirit pertaining to a
world that has gone, but that it had its ultimate source in self-defence.
In the same way another peculiarity of theirs has become plain. They
built their houses and made their furniture in a different way from ours.
When I was a child I used to love hunting for secret drawers in ancient
furniture, and concealed rooms and recesses in those cunningly built
old houses. I remember that whenever I went through the abodes of past
ages, old castles, manors and houses, I used to take a peculiar delight
in their elaborate and intricate construction. The secret hollow spaces
in the walls attracted me, and invisible cupboards—they contrasted so
strangely with the smooth lines of our modern houses. I realise now that
all this was not due to mere fancy. I realise that there is no precaution
of this sort taken in building a house which does not spring from a wish
for either attack or defence. The hidden recesses designed by the old
architects, the secret drawers in old furniture, the reticent, cautious
speech of former generations, all these were only protective against a
danger which threatened. In the last few weeks public security has grown
weaker and weaker, and the rumour has been spreading with increasing
persistence that the present spendthrift government intends to lay its
hand on all gold and silver in private possession. I often look round in
despair at the smooth walls of our house, which refuse all help. It is
not possible in these days to bury anything in the woods. The leaves have
fallen long ago, poaching soldiers are roaming about everywhere, and the
townspeople go out to steal wood all over the place. It is only in one’s
own home that one can hide anything.
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