Communism -- Hungary; Hungary -- History -- Revolution, 1918-1919 -- Personal narratives; Tormay, Cécile, 1876-1937 -- Diaries
On October 31st the hands of traitors drew the flag into the Revolution
as a snare. Then, in tragical disgrace, it was made to float over the
country which its enemies occupied and tore to pieces. The sight of it
became a torture, my soul revolted against it, and I turned away from it
that I might not see it; it became unclean and was besmirched. And when
everything that it stood for had been crushed and dissipated, they tore
it down with derision. From that moment it became ours again: it was
persecuted like ourselves. It was sentenced to death, stood before the
Revolutionary Tribunals; prison and the gallows were in store for those
who harboured it. The flag became a martyr. Because innocent Hungarian
blood has been shed for it, because it has been consecrated with blood,
and blood has brought it back to us and raised it above us—God have
mercy on him who dares to touch it! Its tricoloured folds are now
unfurled under the sky. And beneath it, on the walls of Balassagyarmat,
there stand the letters of the Palatine’s message: “... with everlasting
love....”
Peasants, gentlemen, workmen, and Red soldiers of yesterday gathered in
front of the proclamation and read it, deeply moved. I stood there too.
The sun had set and yet it seemed that some mysterious afterglow lit up
the faces....
* * * * *
_August 8th._
The day has come. The terrible spell is broken. Hungary again takes her
fate in her own hands. And to-day I am to see my mother again.
Life returns to the groove whence it was torn some months ago. Through
the breach in the walls which have encircled us the horizon is widening,
the first train to the capital is starting. And I take leave of the
house which has given me a home, I take leave of the people, the
children, of my little corner near the window and of the shady palings
of the back garden, of everything that has been kind to me in my
misfortune, of all the unforgettable things....
Through the windows of the train the station buildings were already
receding. Then the last little houses disappeared, the waters of the
Ipoly, the poplars on its banks, the glittering heights of the distant
Fátra. Then everything became small and distant. The green trees
gathered close together, the roofs sank in the distance, and the flag
above the county hall seemed to rise higher and higher. Its staff had
become invisible, only its folds were floating like a huge, tricoloured
bird which had stopped in its flight above the town. And winding like a
thread of silver between its swampy meadows the Ipoly kept me company
for a time. Then parched fields came towards me, a sad, dry country. In
the fields of Indian corn the empty, straggling stalks rustled in the
wind raised by the train. And this rattling noise is heard everywhere in
Hungary to-day, for everything has been burnt.
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