Communism -- Hungary; Hungary -- History -- Revolution, 1918-1919 -- Personal narratives; Tormay, Cécile, 1876-1937 -- Diaries
It was night before we started again, and rain began to fall. Slowly
light began to stream towards us through the clammy darkness, and people
in the compartment got ready to get out. A voice said “Balassagyarmat.”
I stood near the door, opened it suddenly, threw out my bag and jumped.
The other doors opened a good deal later, when I was already running
through the exit towards the town. Nobody asked me for my ticket, or
took any notice of me. I reached a paling, overshadowed by a huge walnut
tree, leant against it, and waited till everybody had passed, people and
carriages. For an instant I caught sight of the man in the short fur
coat going towards the town. Then the lights of the station went out,
and I was alone in the dark at the foot of the tree.
It was over! And yet the terror remained. I still felt that strange will
searching for me in the dark, saw the hand industriously groping for me,
missing me over and over again. It had not yet found me, but perhaps
later on.... Instinctively I ducked in my hiding-place. The hand missed
me. It had missed me till now, but every time it seemed to get nearer
its goal. The watching motor-car in front of the doorless house in
Stonemason Street; the Red soldiers in Aszód; the man with the dark
puffy face and the one in the short fur coat.... Every time the hand had
been nearer. One lucky movement and it would have got me. It had been so
yesterday, it might be so to-morrow, but at any rate it had missed me
to-day and I was still free.
I looked round and my eyes became accustomed to the dark. Where was I to
go? A broad street overshadowed by trees led from the station to the
town. Should I follow that? I retained a confused memory of the
instructions Elisabeth Kállay had given me. Soldiers came towards me,
then a few people, at last a little boy. I resolved to confide in the
latter. “Will you help me to carry my bag?”
The boy caught hold of it but it was too heavy for him, so we carried it
together. After all, that had not been my object. What I really wanted
was to find the house of Aladár Huszár. The boy was not quite sure of
it, but he led bravely on through the rain. We left gardens and small
villas behind us and came in sight of a church by dripping trees and a
soaking sandy road. A woman was standing in one of the doorways: She put
us right: “The end of the town, the last house but one.” New anxieties
now took hold of me: up till the present I had only worried about
finding my way, and now that I had found it, it occurred to me that they
might have left the town. Aladár Huszár had the reputation of being a
counter-revolutionary and was suspected by the new power. His wife was
the president of the county branch of the Federation of Hungarian Women,
and she had been attacked by the local Socialist-Communist papers.
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