The boat drifted on. Now the sailors had turned her head and were
rowing slowly back towards the ship. The yellow blur still shone
through the fog. The men discussed together as to the amount of damage
that had been done, the possibility of keeping the hulk afloat. Nancy
Mannering turned and spoke into Katrine's ear:
"My dear, one word! ... You mayn't suspect it, but I've a heart--. In
a physical Sense, I mean, no sentiment; and it's a poor thing. I don't
expect to be drowned, but a little more of this excitement, and it may
play tricks. It's all one, I'm not whining, but if I _should_ pan out,
and you get through, will you just write to my boy? Tell him I asked
you, and that he is not to grieve. Bound to go somehow, some day, and,
why not now? I've no particular wish to live on here, but you can tell
him this--wherever I am, whatever comes next, there'll be no peace for
me unless _he_ keeps straight! That I _know_, and he'd better know it,
too." She was silent for some moments, during which Katrine heard the
quick intake of her breath, then: "And tell him," she added with
difficulty, "tell him I've always been an ostrich, hiding, not my head,
but my heart. Somehow I couldn't let it out, but," her voice deepened
to a full, rich note, "there's never been a moment of his life, since he
was born, when I wouldn't have been flayed--_slowly_! for his good!
Tell him his mother loved him more than her life."
"I'll tell him; I won't write. I'll travel the length of India, if need
be, to tell him myself," cried Katrine, deeply touched. To discover a
hidden weakness in her jaunty, self-sufficient companion was to feel
herself infused with new strength. She was needed, and the woman in her
rose to the? demand. She hitched Jackey on one side so as to free her
right arm, and fumbling in her companion's pocket found and extracted
the flask.
"Meantime, if you have no care for yourself, think of _him_, and be
careful for _his_ sake. What is the use of talking of love, if you
won't do even that for his sake? Be sensible for yourself as well as
for other people!"
"Mr Dick, your common-sense is invaluable!" Mrs Mannering drank,
smacked her lips, and grunted with satisfaction. "That's good! That's
better. I needed that." Then after a momentary pause. "Remember
though, _if I do_ come through, your work is to forget. No bringing up
of deathbed confidences! ... Anything in the same line that I can do
for yourself?"
"No," answered Katrine shortly. If the end came, Martin and Grizel
could console each other without help from her. And their figures were
misty. Even Jackey himself counted for more at this moment, embodying
as he did a great potential possibility of life. As for Jim Blair--ah!
let Jim hug his false dreams: let him never awake!
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