“I speak the truth. I have possessed you in spite of yourself. What I
hoped from your complaisance you have given me without your knowledge.
You took me to the country you want to go to, in a dream, last night,
and you were beautiful . . . ah! you were beautiful, Chrysis! I have
returned from that country. No human will shall force me to see it
again. The same event never brings happiness twice. I am not so mad as
to ruin a happy souvenir. I am indebted for this to you, you will say;
but as I have only loved your shadow, you will dispense me, dear
creature, from thanking your reality.”
Chrysis pressed her hands to her temples.
“It is abominable, abominable! And he dares to say this! And he makes a
boast of it!”
“You jump to definite conclusions very quickly. I have told you that I
have had a dream: are you sure that I was asleep? I have told you that
I was happy: does happiness, according to you, consist in the gross
physical thrill which you say you are so expert in producing, but which
you cannot diversify, since it is much the same with all women who give
themselves! No, it is yourself that you belittle by taking this most
unbecoming point of view. I think you do not quite realise all the
felicities which spring from under your footsteps. What differentiates
mistresses from one another is that they have each a fashion, personal
to themselves, of preparing and terminating an incident which, as a
matter of fact, is as monstrous as it is necessary, and the quest of
which, supposing we had only it in view, would not be worth all the
trouble we take to find a perfect mistress. In this preparation and in
this termination you excel beyond all women. At least, it has been a
pleasure to me to think so, and perhaps you will grant me that after
having produced the Aphrodite of the Temple my imagination has had no
great difficulty in divining the manner of woman you are. Once again, I
will not tell you whether it is a question of a night dream or a waking
error. It is enough for you to know that, whether dreamed or conceived,
your image has appeared to me in an extraordinary frame. Illusion; but,
in all things I shall prevent you, Chrysis, from disillusioning me.”
“And me, what do you mean to do with me, who loves you still in spite
of all the horrors that proceed from your mouth? Have I had the
consciousness of your odious dream? Have I had my share in this
happiness of which you speak, and which you have stolen, stolen from
me! Has one ever heard of a lover so amazingly selfish as to take his
pleasure of the woman who loves him without allowing her to share it! .
. . This confounds all thought. It will drive me mad.”
At this point, Demetrios dropped his tone of mockery, and said, in a
voice that trembled slightly:
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