When he rowed past the Giudecca and was now seeing the broad front
of the Doges' Palace in the twilight of the moon's murky crescent,
the thought was briefly flashing through his mind that this was
the place where crimes would be punished. But for his crime, he
would not find any judges here; for who may pass judgement on his
own case? And was not still the hope with him that, nevertheless,
out of his atrocious deed, salvation and liberation could flourish
for his fellow citizens, that perhaps even the murder of an
innocent man, for which popular opinion would surely blame the
tribunal, would complete the work he had begun and push the
measure of tyranny beyond its limits?
He himself would have destroyed this hope, if he had given himself
up to the judges, if he had dispersed their fear of the invisible
enemies, and if he had diverted the foreign powers' complaints
away from them.
With strong strokes of the oar, he propelled the gondola towards
the lido and crossed the basin of the harbour, where only the
ships' lanterns were still standing guard. By the harbour's
entrance, lay the large felucca, which had prevented even the
smallest vessel from reaching the sea for the last week, unless
the challenge of the guard was answered by the password of the
inquisition. Like all other secret servants of the tribunal,
Andrea had been told the word this morning. Unhindered, he was
allowed to row out into the open sea.
The sea was calm. It were not the waves he had to struggle with
as he rowed along the coast for several hours. But in this calm,
lukewarm night, he only felt his agony even more harshly, and,
from time to time, he beat the sea with the oar like a madman,
just to hear a different sound than his friend's last words: "My
mother, my poor mother."
It was already well past midnight, when he pushed the gondola
ashore, jumped out, and walked towards a lonely monastery, which
stood on a spit of land and was well known by the poor mariners.
Capuchins dwelled here, who lived of the kindness of the people of
Chioggia and of begging on the mainland and gave them spiritual
comfort in return and have been a support for the people in many a
time of need. Andrea pulled the bell-rope by the gate. Soon
afterwards, he heard the porter's voice, asking who was out there.
"A dying man," Andrea answered. "Call Brother Pietro Maria, if
he's in the monastery."
The porter left the door. In the meantime, Andrea sat on the
bench of stone, pulled a piece of paper out of his wallet and
wrote by the light of a lantern, which was shining on him from the
porter's lodge, the following lines:
"To Angelo Querini.
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