"You were only a little girl then, hardly thirteen, and yet to me,
Virginia, you were a woman capable of the deepest feeling. I never shall
forget how you rebuked me about leaving my mother in anger. You looked
at me as straight and frank as starbeams, and told me you’d not desert
your mother in her old age for all the world. I never forgot what you
said and just the way you said it, and through all my turbulent life out
West your lecture was constantly before me. I was angry at my mother,
but finally I got to looking at her marriage differently, and then I
began to want to see her and to do my filial duty as you were doing
yours. That was one reason I came back here. The other was
because—Virginia, it was because I wanted to see _you_."
"Oh, don’t, don’t begin—" but Virginia’s protest died away in her
pulsing throat. She lowered her head and covered her hot face with her
hands.
"But I have begun, and I must go on," he said. "Out West I met hundreds
of attractive women, but I could never look upon them as other men did
because of the—the picture of you stamped on my brain. I was not hearing
a word about you, but you were becoming exactly what I knew you would
become; and when I saw you out there in the barn-yard that first day
after I got back, my whole being caught fire, and it’s blazing yet—it
will blaze as long as there is a breath of my life left to fan it. For
me there can be but one wife, little girl, and if she fails me I’ll go
unmarried to my grave."
"Oh, don’t! don’t!" Virginia sobbed, her tones muffled by her hands
pressed tightly over her face. "You don’t know me. I’m not what you
think I am. I’m only a poor, helpless, troubled—"
"Don’t! don’t!" he broke in, fearfully—"don’t decide against me hastily!
I know—God knows I am unworthy of you, and if you don’t feel as I do you
will never link your young life to mine. Sometimes I fear that your
shrinking from me as you often do is evidence against my hopes. Oh,
dear, little girl, am I a fool? Am I a crazy idiot asking you for what
you can’t possibly give?"
A sob which she was trying to suppress shook her from head to foot, and
she rose and stepped to the door and stood there looking out on the
moonlit road, where his impatient horse was pawing the earth and
neighing. There was silence. King leaned forward, his elbows on his
knees, his strong fingers locked like prongs of steel in front of him,
his face deep cut with the chisel of anxiety. For several minutes he
stared thus at her white profile struck into sharp clearness by the
combined light from without and within.
"I see it all," he groaned. "I’ve lost. While I was away out there
treasuring your memory and seeing your face night after night, day after
day—holding you close, pulling these rugged old mountains about you for
protection, you were not—you were not—I was simply not in your
thoughts."
Then she turned towards him. She seemed to have grown older and stronger
since he began speaking so earnestly.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account