Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
All through the slowly-fading afternoon, the autumn of the day, when
the colours are richest and the shadows long and lengthening, I paced
my solemn old-thoughted church. Sometimes I went up into the pulpit and
sat there, looking on the ancient walls which had grown up under men’s
hands that men might be helped to pray by the visible symbol of unity
which the walls gave, and that the voice of the Spirit of God might be
heard exhorting men to forsake the evil and choose the good. And I
thought how many witnesses to the truth had knelt in those ancient
pews. For as the great church is made up of numberless communities, so
is the great shining orb of witness-bearers made up of millions of
lesser orbs. All men and women of true heart bear individual testimony
to the truth of God, saying, “I have trusted and found Him faithful.”
And the feeble light of the glowworm is yet light, pure, and good, and
with a loveliness of its own. “So, O Lord,” I said, “let my light shine
before men.” And I felt no fear of vanity in such a prayer, for I knew
that the glory to come of it is to God only—“that men may glorify their
Father in heaven.” And I knew that when we seek glory for ourselves,
the light goes out, and the Horror that dwells in darkness breathes
cold upon our spirits. And I remember that just as I thought thus, my
eye was caught first by a yellow light that gilded the apex of the
font-cover, which had been wrought like a flame or a bursting blossom:
it was so old and worn, I never could tell which; and then by a red
light all over a white marble tablet in the wall—the red of life on the
cold hue of the grave. And this red light did not come from any work of
man’s device, but from the great window of the west, which little
Gerard Weir wanted to help God to paint. I must have been in a happy
mood that Saturday afternoon, for everything pleased me and made me
happier; and all the church-forms about me blended and harmonised
graciously with the throne and footstool of God which I saw through the
windows. And I lingered on till the night had come; till the church
only gloomed about me, and had no shine; and then I found my spirit
burning up the clearer, as a lamp which has been flaming all the day
with light unseen becomes a glory in the room when the sun is gone
down.
At length I felt tired, and would go home. Yet I lingered for a few
moments in the vestry, thinking what hymns would harmonize best with
the things I wanted to make my people think about. It was now almost
quite dark out of doors—at least as dark as it would be.
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