Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
And with those words I left the shop, determined to overwhelm the
unbeliever with proof, and put him to shame before his own soul,
whence, I thought, would come even more good to him than to his son.
For there was a great deal of self-satisfaction mixed up with the man’s
honesty, and the sooner that had a blow the better—it might prove a
death-blow in the long run. It was pride that lay at the root of his
hardness. He visited the daughter’s fault upon the son. His daughter
had disgraced him; and he was ready to flash into wrath with his son
upon any imputation which recalled to him the torture he had undergone
when his daughter’s dishonour came first to the light. Her he had never
forgiven, and now his pride flung his son out after her upon the first
suspicion. His imagination had filled up all the blanks in the wicked
insinuations of Mr—-. He concluded that he had taken money to spend in
the worst company, and had so disgraced him beyond forgiveness. His
pride paralysed his love. He thought more about himself than about his
children. His own shame outweighed in his estimation the sadness of
their guilt. It was a less matter that they should be guilty, than that
he, their father, should be disgraced.
Thinking over all this, and forgetting how late it was, I found myself
half-way up the avenue of the Hall. I wanted to find out whether young
Weir’s fancy that the ladies he had failed in serving, or rather whom
he had really served with honesty, were Mrs and Miss Oldcastle, was
correct. What a point it would be if it was! I should not then be
satisfied except I could prevail on Miss Oldcastle to accompany me to
Thomas Weir, and shame the faithlessness out of him. So eager was I
after certainty, that it was not till I stood before the house that I
saw clearly the impropriety of attempting anything further that night.
One light only was burning in the whole front, and that was on the
first floor.
Glancing up at it, I knew not why, as I turned to go down the hill
again, I saw a corner of the blind drawn aside and a face peeping
out—whose, I could not tell. This was uncomfortable—for what could be
taking me there at such a time? But I walked steadily away, certain I
could not escape recognition, and determining to refer to this
ill-considered visit when I called the next day. I would not put it off
till Monday, I was resolved.
I lingered on the bridge as I went home. Not a light was to be seen in
the village, except one over Catherine Weir’s shop. There were not many
restless souls in my parish—not so many as there ought to be. Yet
gladly would I see the troubled in peace—not a moment, though, before
their troubles should have brought them where the weary and heavy-laden
can alone find rest to their souls—finding the Father’s peace in the
Son—the Father himself reconciling them to Himself.
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