Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
“I know that now. And I am very glad I did not know it till I was
better able to bear the disappointment. But it is only for what I heard
that I mean now to acknowledge my obligation. Tell me, Miss
Oldcastle,—what is the most precious gift one person can give another?”
She hesitated; and I, fearing to embarrass her, answered for her.
“It must be something imperishable,—something which in its own nature
IS. If instead of a gem, or even of a flower, we could cast the gift of
a lovely thought into the heart of a friend, that would be giving, as
the angels, I suppose, must give. But you did more and better for me
than that. I had been troubled all the morning; and you made me know
that my Redeemer liveth. I did not know you were playing, mind, though
I felt a difference. You gave me more trust in God; and what other gift
so great could one give? I think that last impression, just as I was
taken ill, must have helped me through my illness. Often when I was
most oppressed, ‘I know that my Redeemer liveth’ would rise up in the
troubled air of my mind, and sung by a voice which, though I never
heard you sing, I never questioned to be yours.”
She turned her face towards me: those sea-blue eyes were full of tears.
“I was troubled myself,” she said, with a faltering voice, “when I
sang—I mean played—that. I am so glad it did somebody good! I fear it
did not do me much.—I will sing it to you now, if you like.”
And she rose to get the music. But that instant Judy, who, I then
found, had left the room, bounded into it, with the exclamation,—
“Auntie, auntie! here’s grannie!”
Miss Oldcastle turned pale. I confess I felt embarrassed, as if I had
been caught in something underhand.
“Is she come in?” asked Miss Oldcastle, trying to speak with
indifference.
“She is just at the door,—must be getting out of the fly now. What
SHALL we do?”
“What DO you mean, Judy?” said her aunt.
“Well you know, auntie, as well as I do, that grannie will look as
black as a thunder-cloud to find Mr Walton here; and if she doesn’t
speak as loud, it will only be because she can’t. _I_ don’t care for
myself, but you know on whose head the storm will fall. Do, dear Mr
Walton, come down the back-stair. Then she won’t be a bit the wiser.
I’ll manage it all.”
Here was a dilemma for me; either to bring suffering on her, to save
whom I would have borne any pain, or to creep out of the house as if I
were and ought to be ashamed of myself. I believe that had I been in
any other relation to my fellows, I would have resolved at once to lay
myself open to the peculiarly unpleasant reproach of sneaking out of
the house, rather than that she should innocently suffer for my being
innocently there. But I was a clergyman; and I felt, more than I had
ever felt before, that therefore I could not risk ever the appearance
of what was mean. Miss Oldcastle, however, did not leave it to me to
settle the matter. All that I have just written had but flashed through
my mind when she said:—
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