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“I am delighted, Mr Stoddart, to hear you put the question. That is
always the point.—The inward holy garrison, that of faith, which holds
by the truth, by sacred facts, and not by appearances, must be
strengthened and nourished and upheld, and so enabled to resist the
onset of the powers without. A friend’s remonstrance may appear an
unkindness—a friend’s jest an unfeelingness—a friend’s visit an
intrusion; nay, to come to higher things, during a mere headache it
will appear as if there was no truth in the world, no reality but that
of pain anywhere, and nothing to be desired but deliverance from it.
But all such impressions caused from without—for, remember, the body
and its innermost experiences are only OUTSIDE OF THE MAN—have to be
met by the inner confidence of the spirit, resting in God and resisting
every impulse to act according to that which APPEARS TO IT instead of
that which IT BELIEVES. Hence, Faith is thus allegorically represented:
but I had better give you Spenser’s description of her—Here is the
‘Fairy Queen’:—
‘She was arrayed all in lily white,
And in her right hand bore a cup of gold,
With wine and water filled up to the height,
In which a serpent did himself enfold,
That horror made to all that did behold;
But she no whit did change her constant mood.’
This serpent stands for the dire perplexity of things about us, at
which yet Faith will not blench, acting according to what she believes,
and not what shows itself to her by impression and appearance.”
“I admit all that you say,” returned Mr Stoddart. “But still the
practical conclusion—which I understand to be, that the inward garrison
must be fortified—is considerably incomplete unless we buttress it with
the final HOW. How is it to be fortified? For,
‘I have as much of this in art as you,
But yet my nature could not bear it so.’
(You see I read Shakespeare as well as you, Mr Walton.) I daresay, from
a certain inclination to take the opposite side, and a certain dislike
to the dogmatism of the clergy—I speak generally—I may have appeared to
you indifferent, but I assure you that I have laboured much to withdraw
my mind from the influence of money, and ambition, and pleasure, and to
turn it to the contemplation of spiritual things. Yet on the first
attack of a depressing illness I cease to be a gentleman, I am rude to
ladies who do their best and kindest to serve me, and I talk to the
friend who comes to cheer and comfort me as if he were an idle vagrant
who wanted to sell me a worthless book with the recommendation of the
pretence that he wrote it himself. Now that I am in my right mind, I am
ashamed of myself, ashamed that it should be possible for me to behave
so, and humiliated yet besides that I have no ground of assurance that,
should my illness return to-morrow, I should not behave in the same
manner the day after. I want to be ALWAYS in my right mind. When I am
not, I know I am not, and yet yield to the appearance of being.”
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