Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
The old man was silent. Evidently he thought I might interfere if I
pleased. I could see what he was thinking. Possibly his daughter had
told him something more than he chose to communicate to me. I could not
help suspecting the mode in which he judged I might interfere. But I
could see no likelihood before me but that of confusion and
precipitation. In a word, I had not a plain path to follow.
“Old Rogers,” I said, “I can almost guess what you mean. But I am in
more difficulty with regard to what you suggest than I can easily
explain to you. I need not tell you, however, that I will turn the
whole matter over in my mind.”
“The prey ought to be taken from the lion somehow, if it please God,”
returned the old man solemnly. “The poor young lady keeps up as well as
she can before her mother; but Jane do say there’s a power o’ crying
done in her own room.”
Partly to hide my emotion, partly with the sudden resolve to do
something, if anything could be done, I said:—
“I will call on Mr Stoddart this evening. I may hear something from him
to suggest a mode of action.”
“I don’t think you’ll get anything worth while from Mr Stoddart. He
takes things a deal too easy like. He’ll be this man’s man and that
man’s man both at oncet. I beg your pardon, sir. But HE won’t help us.”
“That’s all I can think of at present, though,” I said; whereupon the
man-of-war’s man, with true breeding, rose at once, and took a kindly
leave.
I was in the storm again. She suffering, resisting, and I standing
aloof! But what could I do? She had repelled me—she would repel me.
Were I to dare to speak, and so be refused, the separation would be
final. She had said that the day might come when she would ask help
from me: she had made no movement towards the request. I would gladly
die to serve her—yea, more gladly far than live, if that service was to
separate us. But what to do I could not see. Still, just to do
something, even if a useless something, I would go and see Mr Stoddart
that evening. I was sure to find him alone, for he never dined with the
family, and I might possibly catch a glimpse of Miss Oldcastle.
I found little Gerard so much better, though very weak, and his mother
so quiet, notwithstanding great feverishness, that I might safely leave
them to the care of Mary, who had quite recovered from her attack, and
her brother Tom. So there was something off my mind for the present.
The heavens were glorious with stars,—Arcturus and his host, the
Pleiades, Orion, and all those worlds that shine out when ours is dark;
but I did not care for them. Let them shine: they could not shine into
me. I tried with feeble effort to lift my eyes to Him who is above the
stars, and yet holds the sea, yea, the sea of human thought and
trouble, in the hollow of His hand. How much sustaining, although no
conscious comforting, I got from that region
“Where all men’s prayers to Thee raised
Return possessed of what they pray Thee.”
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