Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
“I don’t know, sir. But I must tell you another thing. The Sunday afore
that, the parson had been preachin’ about ‘Suffer little children,’ you
know, sir, ‘to come unto me.’ I suppose that was what put it in my
head; but I fell asleep wi’ nothin’ else in my head but the cries o’
the infants and the sound o’ the ston’ in the draw-well. And I dreamed
that I had one o’ them under each arm, cryin’ dreadful, and was walkin’
across the court the way to the draw-well; when all at once a man come
up to me and held out his two hands, and said, ‘Gie me my childer.’ And
I was in a terrible fear. And I gave him first one and then the
t’other, and he took them, and one laid its head on one shoulder of
him, and t’other upon t’other, and they stopped their cryin’, and fell
fast asleep; and away he walked wi’ them into the dark, and I saw him
no more. And then I awoke cryin’, I didn’t know why. And I took my
twins to me, and my breasts was full, if ye’ll excuse me, sir. And my
heart was as full o’ love to them. And they hardly cried worth
mentionin’ again. But afore they was two year old, they both died o’
the brown chytis, sir. And I think that He took them.”
“He did take them, Mrs Tomkins; and you’ll see them again soon.”
“But, if He never forgets anything——”
“I didn’t say that. I think He can do what He pleases. And if He
pleases to forget anything, then He can forget it. And I think that is
what He does with our sins—that is, after He has got them away from us,
once we are clean from them altogether. It would be a dreadful thing if
He forgot them before that, and left them sticking fast to us and
defiling us. How then should we ever be made clean?—What else does the
prophet Isaiah mean when he says, ‘Thou hast cast my sins behind Thy
back?’ Is not that where He does not choose to see them any more? They
are not pleasant to Him to think of any more than to us. It is as if He
said—‘I will not think of that any more, for my sister will never do it
again,’ and so He throws it behind His back.”
“They ARE good words, sir. I could not bear Him to think of me and my
sins both at once.”
I could not help thinking of the words of Macbeth, “To know my deed,
’twere best not know myself.”
The old woman lay quiet after this, relieved in mind, though not in
body, by the communication she had made with so much difficulty, and I
hastened home to send some coals and other things, and then call upon
Dr Duncan, lest he should not know that his patient was so much worse
as I had found her.
From Dr Duncan’s I went to see old Samuel Weir, who likewise was
ailing. The bitter weather was telling chiefly upon the aged. I found
him in bed, under the old embroidery. No one was in the room with him.
He greeted me with a withered smile, sweet and true, although no flash
of white teeth broke forth to light up the welcome of the aged head.
“Are you not lonely, Mr Weir?”
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