Country life -- Fiction; Vicars, Parochial -- England -- Fiction
“But you can hear me. And you can hear God’s voice in your heart. I am
here, though you can’t feel me. And God is here, though you can’t see
Him.”
She would be silent for a while, and then murmur again—
“Are you there, Tomkins?”
“Yes, my woman, I’m here,” answered the old man to one of these
questions; “but I wish I was there instead, wheresomever it be as
you’re goin’, old girl.”
And all that I could hear of her answer was, “Bym by; bym by.”
Why should I linger over the death-bed of an illiterate woman, old and
plain, dying away by inches? Is it only that she died with a hold of my
hand, and that therefore I am interested in the story? I trust not. I
was interested in HER. Why? Would my readers be more interested if I
told them of the death of a young lovely creature, who said touching
things, and died amidst a circle of friends, who felt that the very
light of life was being taken away from them? It was enough for me that
here was a woman with a heart like my own; who needed the same
salvation I needed; to whom the love of God was the one blessed thing;
who was passing through the same dark passage into the light that the
Lord had passed through before her, that I had to pass through after
her. She had no theories—at least, she gave utterance to none; she had
few thoughts of her own—and gave still fewer of them expression; you
might guess at a true notion in her mind, but an abstract idea she
could scarcely lay hold of; her speech was very common; her manner
rather brusque than gentle; but she could love; she could forget
herself; she could be sorry for what she did or thought wrong; she
could hope; she could wish to be better; she could admire good people;
she could trust in God her Saviour. And now the loving God-made human
heart in her was going into a new school that it might begin a fresh
beautiful growth. She was old, I have said, and plain; but now her old
age and plainness were about to vanish, and all that had made her youth
attractive to young Tomkins was about to return to her, only rendered
tenfold more beautiful by the growth of fifty years of learning
according to her ability. God has such patience in working us into
vessels of honour! in teaching us to be children! And shall we find the
human heart in which the germs of all that is noblest and loveliest and
likest to God have begun to grow and manifest themselves uninteresting,
because its circumstances have been narrow, bare, and poverty-stricken,
though neither sordid nor unclean; because the woman is old and
wrinkled and brown, as if these were more than the transient accidents
of humanity; because she has neither learned grammar nor philosophy;
because her habits have neither been delicate nor self-indulgent? To
help the mind of such a woman to unfold to the recognition of the
endless delights of truth; to watch the dawn of the rising intelligence
upon the too still face, and the transfiguration of the whole form, as
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