Black humor; City and town life -- Fiction; Intellectuals -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Satire
“Like everybody else,” said Gumbril irritatingly. It amused him to see
the rabbits scampering about at last.
“I’ve never known a woman like that before.”
Gumbril laughed. “You’d say that of any woman you happened to be
interested in,” he said. “You’ve never known any women at all.” He knew
much more about Rosie, already, than Shearwater did, or probably ever
would.
Shearwater meditated. He thought of Mrs. Viveash, her cool, pale,
critical eyes; her laughter, faint and mocking; her words that pierced
into the mind, goading it into thinking unprecedented thoughts.
“She interests me,” he repeated. “I want you to tell me what she’s
really like.” He emphasized the word really, as though there must, in
the nature of things, be a vast difference between the apparent and the
real Mrs. Viveash.
Most lovers, Gumbril reflected, picture to themselves, in their
mistresses, a secret reality, beyond and different from what they see
every day. They are in love with somebody else—their own invention. And
sometimes there is a secret reality; and sometimes reality and
appearance are the same. The discovery, in either case, is likely to
cause a shock. “I don’t know,” he said. “How should I know? You must
find out for yourself.”
“But you knew her, you know her well,” said Shearwater, almost with
anxiety in his voice.
“Not so well as all that.”
Shearwater sighed profoundly, like a whale in the night. He felt
restless, incapable of concentrating. His mind was full of a horrible
confusion. A violent eruptive bubbling up from below had shaken its calm
clarity to pieces. All this absurd business of passion—he had always
thought it nonsense, unnecessary. With a little strength of will one
could shut it out. Women—only for half an hour out of the twenty-four.
But she had laughed, and his quiet, his security had vanished. “I can
imagine,” he had said to her yesterday, “I can imagine myself giving up
everything, work and all, to go running round after you.” “And do you
suppose I should enjoy that?” Mrs. Viveash had asked. “It would be
ridiculous,” he said, “it would be almost shameful.” And she had thanked
him for the compliment. “And at the same time,” he went on, “I feel that
it might be worth it. It might be the only thing.” His mind was
confused, full of new thoughts. “It’s difficult,” he said after a pause,
“arranging things. Very difficult. I thought I had arranged them so
well....”
“I never arrange anything,” said Gumbril, very much the practical
philosopher. “I take things as they come.” And as he spoke the words,
suddenly he became rather disgusted with himself. He shook himself; he
climbed up out of his own morass. “It would be better, perhaps, if I
arranged things more,” he added.
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