Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Monks -- Fiction; Portugal -- History -- 1826-1853 -- Fiction; Wine and wine making -- Fiction
"Let us leave them alone," she pleaded. "I hate them. Deep down in
my heart, I do not disbelieve. Before you had half finished your
story, my pride was broken. Yes, when you pictured the chapel on the
night you returned, and the moonlight lingering on the crown of
Jesus, I knelt with you in spirit before that altar and words came
back to my lips that I hadn't said since I was a child."
In exceeding thankfulness he was about to speak; but she hurried on.
"Antonio," she said, "if you send me away, perhaps you will think of
me as a temptress--a woman raised up by the devil to blandish you
aside from your holy purpose, and to lure you into trampling upon
your vows. Promise you will never think of me like that. Kneeling
here on my knees, I swear before God that I am not ... that."
She paused. Then, with her head bent so that he could not see her
face, and in low tones, she added slowly:
"I have only wanted to be near you--to be with you, to spend all the
rest of my life listening to you, helping you. Heaven knows there
has never been for a moment anything ... anything base in my love. I
know what most people mean by love and I loathe it. Tell me you
don't misunderstand. Say you believe me. Promise you'll never think
of me like that."
"I promise," said Antonio, deeply moved. And, try as he would, he
could say no more.
After a long time she raised her head abruptly and challenged his
eyes. By the pallor which blanched her cheeks he divined her
question, and he knew that the bitterest moment of his life was come.
"So there is no room for me?" she asked in low, vibrating tones. "No
room for Isabel as well as for your Bride? You send me away?"
He tried to be cool; but the flame of her pure heart's yearning so
scorched him that he cried out:
"No, I do not send you away. It is not my will; it is God's. He
knows, Isabel, He knows that all the sacrifices I have ever made and
all the trials I have ever borne are as a few grains of dust compared
with this. I do not send you away. But you must go. Our spirits
are willing to take high and holy vows, here and now; but we are
flesh and we are weak. You must go. You must. You will."
She arose slowly and stood upright. Instantly he did the same. He
seized her hand; but before he could speak, she said quietly:
"I will go. After this, unless miracles happen, you will only see me
with Mrs. Baxter or with my father. But, before I go, do me one
little kindness. I promise that, so long as I live, it shall be a
secret between us. I know your heart. Once, only once, let me hear
you say that you love me."
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