"Lysia!"--and his voice, even to his own ears, had a solemn as well as
passionate thrill,--"Lysia, what wouldst thou have with me? Speak! ...
for my heart aches with a burden of dark memories,--memories conjured
up by the wizard spell of thine eyes,--those eyes so cruel-sweet that
seem to lure me to my soul's ruin! Tell me--have we not met before? ...
loved before? ... wronged each other and God before? ... parted before?
... Maybe 'tis but a brain sick fancy,--nevertheless my spirit knows
thee,--feels thee,--clings to thee,--and yet recoils from thee as one
whom I did love in by-gone days of old! My thoughts of thee are
strange, fair Lysia!"--and he pressed her warm, delicate fingers with
unconscious fierceness,--"I would have sworn that in the Past thou
didst betray me!"
Her low laugh stirred the silence into a faint, tuneful echo.
"Thou foolish dreamer!" she murmured half mockingly, half tenderly ...
"Thou art dazed with wine, steeped in song, bewitched with beauty, and
knowest nothing of what thou sayest! Methinks thou art a crazed poet,
and more fervid than Sah-luma in the mystic nature of thine
utterance,--thou shouldst be Laureate, not he! What if thou wert
offered his place? ... his fame?"
He looked at her, surprised and perplexed, and paused an instant before
replying. Then he said slowly:
"So strange a thing could never be ... for Sah-luma's place, once
empty, could not again be filled! I grudge him not his
glory-laurels,--moreover, ... what is Fame compared to Love!" He
uttered the last words in a low tone as though he spoke them to
himself, ... she heard,--and a flash of triumph brightened her
beautiful face.
"Ah! ..." and she drooped her head lower and lower till her dark,
fragrant tresses touched his brow ... "Then, ... thou dost love me?"
He started. A dull pang ached in his heart,--a chill of vague
uncertainty and dread. Love! ... was it love indeed that he felt? ...
love, ... or ... base desire? Love ... The word rang in his ears with
the same sacred suggestiveness as that conveyed by the chime of
bells,--surely, Love was a holy thing, ... a passion pure, impersonal,
divine, and deathless,--and it seemed to him that somewhere it had been
written or said ... "Wheresoever a man seeketh himself, there he
falleth from Love" And he, ... did he not seek himself, and the
gratification of his own immediate pleasure? Painfully he considered,
... it was a supreme moment with him,--a moment when he felt himself to
be positively held within the grasp of some great Archangel, who,
turning grandly reproachful eyes upon him, demanded ...
"Art thou the Servant of Love or the Slave of Self?" And while he
remained silent, the silken sweet voice of the fairest woman he had
ever seen once more sent its musical cadence through his brain in that
fateful question:
"Thou dost love me?"
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