"A central sorrow dwells in perfect joy!--"
Scarcely had he repeated this to himself inwardly, than Sah-luma, with
majestic grace and sweetness of utterance, dictated aloud:
"A central sorrow dwells in perfect joy!"
"Ah GOD!"
The sharp cry, half fierce, half despairing, broke from Theos's
quivering lips in spite of all the efforts he made to control his
agitation, and the Laureate turned toward him with a surprised and
somewhat irritated movement that plainly evinced annoyance at the
interruption.
"Pardon, Sah-luma!" he murmured hastily. "'Twas a slight pang at the
heart troubled me,--a mere nothing!--I take shame to myself to have
cried out for such a pin's prick! Speak on!--thy first line is as soft
as honey dew,--as suggestive as the light of dawn on sleeping flowers!"
And, leaning dizzily back on his couch, he closed his eyes to shut in
the hot and bitter tears that welled up rebelliously and threatened to
fall, notwithstanding his endeavor to restrain them. His head throbbed
and burned as though a chaplet of fiery thorns encircled it, instead of
the once desired crown of Fame he had so fondly dreamed of winning!
Fame? ... Alas! that bright, delusive vision had fled forever,--there
were no glory-laurels left growing for him in the fields of poetic art
and aspiration,--Sah-luma, the fortunate Sah-luma, had gathered and
possessed them all! Taking everything into serious consideration, he
came at last to the deeply mortifying conclusion that it must be
himself who was the plagiarist,--the unconscious imitator of Sah-luma's
ideas and methods, . . and the worst of it was that his imitation was
so terribly EXACT!
Oh, how heartily he despised himself for his poor and pitiful lack of
originality! Down to the very depths of humiliation he sternly abased
his complaining, struggling, wounded, and sorely resentful spirit, . .
he then and there became the merciless executioner of his own claims to
literary honor,--and deliberately crushing all his past ambition,
mutinous discontent and uncompliant desires with a strong master-hand
he lay quiet...as patiently unmoved as is a dead man to the wrongs
inflicted on his memory...and forced himself to listen resignedly to
every glowing line of his, . . no, not his, but Sah-luma's poem, . .
the lovely, gracious, delicate, entrancing poem he remembered so well!
And by and by, as each mellifluous stanza sounded softly on his ears, a
strangely solemn tranquillity swept over him,--a most soothing halcyon
calm, as though some passing angel's hand had touched his brow in
benediction.
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