and beyond that he remembered nothing. Perhaps his indifference and
self-absorption had discouraged Anne. In any case, she hadn’t gone on
with the poem. But it wasn’t so much his music she had interrupted with
her poetry, that far-away afternoon in winter. It was his thoughts. And
those thoughts, his whole preoccupation, had been Joan ... Joan ...
Joan.... His music was only a path, winding through his preoccupation, a
path through, not a path out.
But now, this morning, noticing the swelling purple and red and gold of
the budded trees which almost before his eyes were rushing upon spring,
the beauty Anne had failed to share so many weeks ago pierced through to
him. And it came to him, as a matter of fact, that things in general
lately had been piercing through to him with more and more persistence.
He saw, felt, tasted, smelled the world this spring as he had not done
for many springs. Joan was in his mind more or less, for he was still in
love with her. But she no longer tinged his perceptions of everything
else as well. Anne, Glenn, his mother, Brenda Loring, his friends at the
office, spring coming,—these held vital places of their own in his new,
sharpened attention.
And Ariel and Grandam? Grandam had never given way to Joan in his
thoughts, any more than she gave way to her in actuality. As for Ariel,
she did not so much enter into as hover about the outer edges of Hugh’s
consciousness, her feet on azure air as in her father’s paintings. Yes.
From her arrival on the same boat with Joan, Ariel had been above and
outside but very present to Hugh’s conscious mind.... So he thought now,
stirred to such thinking by those pointed, sharp buds of the tree
boughs.
Yet after all it wasn’t these buds which had pierced through and touched
his soul. As he turned out from the spring woods onto the Post Road, he
knew that it wasn’t the buds but something corresponding to them. For
all Ariel’s delicate lightness, her tenderness, it was she, her presence
at Wild Acres, which had pierced the harsh coating over his sleeping
soul.
He jammed on his brakes and the big wheels of his car spurted gravel on
Holly’s superbly tended driveway under Holly’s portico. Joan was on the
steps.
She, too, knew that spring had come. From head to foot she was all in
fresh spring raiment. A lettuce-green hat tilted its shade across
glowing eyes. She was drawing on lemon-colored doeskin gloves and
laughing. “I thought you were going to drive right through and out
again! What _were_ you thinking of so dourly, Hugh?”
He waited while she settled in beside him, knees close together, narrow
patent-leather-slippered feet glittering by the accelerator, her
shoulder a careful inch or so from his. “I wasn’t a bit dour. Quite the
contrary. I was thinking of spring.”
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