Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 1Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
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Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 1
Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
English fiction -- 19th century
“I was always a woman of delicacy, and it was not for me to speak. I had
been deceived and was deserted. Only when too late did I find how
wickedly I had been betrayed, and then, when you came by and found me in
my sorrow and desolation, I clung to your hand; I hoped you would be my
consolation, my stay, my solace, and I—I——” She burst into tears. “I
have been bitterly disappointed. I have found you without love,
churlish, sullen, holding me from you as if I were infected with the
plague, not ready to clasp me as an unhappy, suffering woman, that
needed all the love and pity you could give.”
“Not one word did you tell me of all this. You let me marry you in
unsuspicion that before you had loved another.”
“Not at all, Stephen,” she said, “I have already assured you that I did
not love the man whom I so foolishly and unfortunately trusted.”
“Why have you not told me this story long ago? Why have you left me in
the dark so long?”
“Your own fault, Stephen, none but yours. If you had shown me that
consideration which becomes a professing Christian, I might have been
encouraged to open my poor, tired, fluttering heart to you; but I was
always a woman of extreme delicacy, and very reserved. You, however,
were distant, and cold, and jealous. Then my pride bade me keep my
tragic story to myself.”
Saltren stood before her with folded arms, his hands were working. He
could not keep them still but by clasping them to his side. “I was just,
Marianne!” he said. “Just, and not severe to judge. I judged but as I
knew the facts. If I was told nothing, I knew nothing to extenuate your
fault. You were young and beautiful, and I thought that perhaps you had
not strong principles to guide you. Now that you have told me all, I
allow that you were more sinned against than sinning; but I cannot
acquit you of not entrusting me before this with the whole truth.”
“You never asked me for it.”
“No,” he answered sternly. “I could not do that. It was for you to have
spoken.”
Then, all at once, Saltren began to tremble; he took hold of the
window-jamb, and he shook so that the diamond panes in the casement
rattled. He stood there quivering in all his limbs. Great drops formed
and rolled off his tall forehead, hung a moment suspended on his shaggy
brow and then fell to the ground. They were not tears, they were the
anguish drops expressed from his brain.
Mrs. Saltren looked at him with astonishment and some trepidation. She
never had comprehended him. She could not understand what was going on
in him now.
“What is it, Stephen?”
He waved his hand. He could not speak.
“But, Stephen, what is it? Are you ill?”
Then he threw himself before her, and clasped her to him furiously, with
a cry and a sob, and broke into a convulsion of loud weeping. He kissed
her forehead, hair, and lips. He seized her hands, and covered them at
once with tears and kisses.
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