Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 2Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
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Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 2
Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
English fiction -- 19th century
What would her father say at her departure? Into what a predicament had
she put him? She had forced him into one from which he could not escape
without publishing his own dishonour, without allowing his wife, and the
parish, and the county, and society generally to know that once on a
time he had behaved in a manner unworthy of a gentleman to a poor
servant girl. He to whom every one in the place, in the county, looked
up as a spotless and worthy John Bull, was to be proclaimed an impostor,
and made the talk of idle and malicious tongues.
“If a man has done wrong,” she said to justify herself, “he must bear
the consequences. It is cowardly to try and hide the act, evade what it
entails, and base to appear before the world under false pretences. Let
him acknowledge the wrong he has done, and men will then respect him
because he is open, and does not shrink from those consequences a wrong
act brings on the wrong-doer.”
But this did not satisfy her. It might be true, it was true, that this
was the only right and honourable course for one to take who had erred,
but—was she, his daughter, the proper person to force her father into
the course and out of the road he had elected to pursue? Was it for her
hand to rip up old wounds, and drag into the light the dark secrets he
strove to bury out of sight? Was it for her to reveal a stain which
disfigured the whole house? Was it for her to shock her step-mother, and
disturb her trust? To mar the domestic unity and mutual esteem which had
been so perfect?
Lady Lamerton had her weaknesses, but she had also her strength, and her
strength was the rectitude of her heart, which made her do her duty with
all her power. In pursuance of this sense of duty, Lady Lamerton had
been unfailingly kind to Arminell. The girl, looking back, saw this now,
and was stung with self-reproach, because in return for this treatment
she cast the apple of discord between her father and mother, and broke
what to her ladyship was the most precious jewel she possessed—her
reverence for my lord.
And how—when it pleased Arminell to return home after all the
disturbance she had caused, the pain and humiliation she had
occasioned—how would she be received again by those she had wronged and
hurt? She had no doubt upon this point. She knew that she would be
received with open arms, and without a word of reproach from one or the
other.
Then Arminell began to sob, and she saw no more the ostler curricombing
his horse, nor the woman shaking a table-cloth out of a window, nor the
sparrows quarrelling for the crumbs, nor the back of a maid seated
outside a house on a window ledge cleaning the glass, or she saw these
things through a watery film.
She was roused by a tap at her door. She hastily dried her eyes, and
stood up, with her back to the light, that her discomposure might be
unobserved, and called to the person without to enter.
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