Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 3Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
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Arminell: A Social Romance, Vol. 3
Baring-Gould, S. (Sabine)
English fiction -- 19th century
“Mr. Saltren,” said she, “I will not disguise the fact that you—you and
my step-daughter between you—have occasioned me more grief than has even
the death of my dear lord. But I am not justified in refusing to accept
your expression of sorrow, though perhaps it is too early yet, and the
wound too fresh, for me to be able heartily to forgive you both. I
acknowledge that you acted for the best when you discovered your error,
in returning promptly to Chillacot, so as to silence the voice of
scandal. Whether Arminell was wise in acting as she did admits of
difference of opinion. For her decision you are not responsible. She
tells me what you proposed—to telegraph for her maid to be sent to
Portland Place, and that the maid should find her at her aunt’s and
accompany her home. If that plan had been executed, only ourselves would
have known the secret history of that London escapade. But she elected
otherwise. She would punish herself for having thought unworthily of her
dear father, and for having embittered his last hour of life. It is
possible, indeed it is probable, that it was the distress and alarm
which he felt, as he took that fatal walk, that blinded him as to his
course, so that he fell over the cliff. I dare say Arminell has judged
right in resolving to suffer. I do not blame her. There is something
honourable in her resolve to abide the consequences of her own foolish
act. She has also spared me the difficulty of meeting her under the
circumstances, and controlling and disguising my feelings towards her.
If we had met immediately, I hardly know how I could have behaved with
composure and charity towards her. I never, never could have loved her
as I have loved her heretofore; for I could not have forgotten the
dishonour she had done in thought to the purest life, the noblest
soul——” Then her ladyship broke down.
After a minute she recovered herself, and proceeded, “She has foreseen
this, and has resolved to relieve me of the restraint, to spare me the
trial. I thank her for that. I confess, Mr. Saltren, that when I heard
you were here my first impulse was to decline an interview. But on
second thoughts I resolved to accord you a meeting. It is as well that
no one should suspect the wrong you have done; and it is right that I
should accept your expression of penitence, for we daily ask of Heaven
to forgive us our trespasses as we forgive such as have trespassed
against us.” She paused.
Saltren’s heart was too full for him to speak.
Silence ensued for a minute or two. Each stood, each with lowered eyes,
and with a struggle raging in each for control over the stirred
emotions.
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