"If you can look at things like that, it is evident that you will never
need anybody, and all I can say for you is, that I pity you very much.
But, come now," said he, almost impatiently, "admit that if I came
to-morrow to ask a favour of you, you would not refuse me, even if you
should grant it only out of respect of the world's opinion; that is all
the world cares for."
"But even admitting that I would render you a service, what would that
prove? Only that you had need of me, not I of you--"
"And thus you believe you will never be in need of any one?"
"Yes, that is my principal luxury, and I hold fast to it."
"So let it be; your fortune is in land, it is safe; your position is
equal to the very best, you do not believe in any heartaches, or, if
they should come, you will suffer alone; but, for instance, suppose you
ever have to fight a duel, you will have to ask some gentleman to be
your second; that is a great obligation! You see you may need others to
help you in this world."
"If ever I have a duel, I shall walk into the first barracks I come to,
I shall pick up the first two non-commissioned officers or soldiers that
I lay my hand on, and there I shall have two excellent seconds, and ones
that no man of honour could take exception to."
"What a devil of a man you are!" said the count to me. "But suppose you
are wounded, who will come to see you?"
"Nobody, thank the Lord! In physical suffering I am like a wild beast, I
want only solitude and the dark night."
"But in the world, to talk to, to live with, to live in the world you
must live with others."
"Oh, for all that, the others will not fail me any more than I shall
abandon them. The world of society is a concert, where the most
miserable musicians are placed on the same footing as the greatest
artists, and where each one plays his one note, but such chance
acquaintances cannot be called friends. Such attachments are like
strong, free-growing plants, which have neither sweet perfume nor
brilliant colouring, but which are ever green, and which we are not
afraid of crushing; the proof is that, after all we have been saying to
each other, we will remain on the same good terms as heretofore;
to-morrow we will shake hands before everybody, we will talk about
Madame de Pënâfiel's adorers, or of anything else you may please; and
in six months we will call each other 'dear fellow,' but in six months
and a day, should you or I disappear from this happy earth, either you
or I would be perfectly indifferent to the other's disappearance. And it
is perfectly natural that this should be the case. Why should it be
otherwise? What right have I to exact any other sentiment of you? And
why should you require it of me?"
"What you say is very uncommon; every one does not think as you do."
"I hope they do not for their own sakes. I fancy that I am like no one
because I am like all."
"And, no doubt, with such principles, you despise all alike, both men
and women."
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