If the weather was not too bad, Marie took my arm and we sallied forth
to affront the wind and cold, climb the mountainsides, where we gathered
plants for Marie's herbarium, or tramp through the forest, where we
would amuse ourselves by startling the doe with her faun, from her
hiding-place in these solitary glades.
During these long walks, Marie, who was always lively, laughed and joked
like a schoolgirl, and treated me like a brother. In her chaste
innocence she often made me undergo severe trials. Sometimes it was her
fur collar to fasten, sometimes to push up her long hair under her hat,
or to fasten the lace of her shoe, which had become undone.
So, in those long tramps, as I would gaze on the lovely face of Marie,
which under its curls, all powdered with sleet, looked like a rose
covered with snow,--how many times an avowal came to my lips! How often
was I on the point of declaring my love! But Marie, crossing both of her
arms on mine, would lean on me with such confidence, would look at me
with such candour and security, that each day I was fain to put off this
declaration until the next.
I was fearful that, if I risked a premature word, I might destroy all
this tranquil happiness.
I waited then patiently. I was not deceived as to the sentiments I had
inspired in Marie's breast; without being foolishly conceited or
ridiculously vain, I could not withstand the evidence of my own eyes.
For the last two months and more I had seen her almost every day. My
attentions to her, to one so young, so unsophisticated, so little
accustomed to the ways of the world, had made a deep impression on her;
but I had recognised in her such high principles, such decided religious
sentiment, and such a deep sense of duty, that I felt I would have to
undergo a long struggle, perhaps a painful one, although a thousand
trifles showed me that Marie cared for me with a measure of affection of
which she herself was most likely ignorant.
In the evening, after one of my dinners at the farm, Madame Kerouët,
seated in her great armchair at the chimney-corner, would spin off a
distaff of flax, while Marie and I, seated at the same table, arranged
the plants we had collected for our herbariums in the course of our
winter walks.
When fixing the slight stalks on paper, our hands would often touch.
Often when we were both leaning over the table my hair would be pressed
against Marie's forehead, or I would feel her warm breath caressing my
cheek.
At such times she would blush, her breast would heave rapidly, and
sometimes her hand would tremble on the paper.
Then, as if awakening from a dream, she would say to me, pretending to
be reproachful: "See, now, how badly you have placed that plant."
"It is your fault," I would answer, laughing. "You neither help me, nor
hold the paper."
"Not at all. It is you who have not the least patience, you are always
afraid of getting gum on your fingers when you are pasting the little
bands."
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