France -- History -- Francis I, 1515-1547 -- Fiction
We have seen her when she was happy and thoughtless: then Benvenuto
loved her. So long as she was conscious of that love, or rather of that
kindly feeling in her lover's heart, so long as the hope of becoming the
sculptor's wife some day was present like a golden cloud in all her
dreams, so long she maintained herself at the level of her
anticipations, and made atonement for her past by her love. But as soon
as she discovered that she had been deceived by appearances, and that
what she had mistaken for passion on Cellini's part was at most a mere
whim, she descended the ladder of hope round by round. Benvenuto's
smile, which had made that faded heart blossom anew, was taken from her,
and the heart lost its freshness once more.
With her childish light-heartedness her childish purity had gradually
vanished; her old nature, powerfully assisted by ennui, gently recovered
the upper hand. A newly painted wall keeps its colors in the sun and
loses them in the rain: Scozzone, abandoned by Cellini for some unknown
mistress, was no longer held to him save by a remnant of her pride.
Pagolo had long paid court to her: she spoke to Cellini of his love,
thinking that his jealousy would be aroused. Her expectation was not
realized: Cellini, instead of losing his temper, began to laugh, and,
instead of forbidding her to see Pagolo, actually ordered her to receive
him. Thereafter she felt that she was entirely lost; thereafter she
abandoned her life to chance with her former indifference, and let it
blow about in the wind of circumstances like a poor, fallen withered
leaf.
Then it was that Pagolo triumphed over her indifference. After all was
said, Pagolo was young; Pagolo, aside from his hypocritical expression,
was a handsome youth; Pagolo was in love, and was forever repeating to
her that he loved her, while Benvenuto had long since ceased to tell her
so. The words, "I love you," are the language of the heart, and the
heart always feels the need of speaking that language more or less
ardently with some one.
Thus, in a moment of idleness, of anger, perhaps of illusion, Scozzone
had told Pagolo that she loved him; she had told him so without really
loving him; she had told him so with Cellini's image in her heart and
his name upon her lips.
Then it immediately occurred to her that the day might come when
Cellini, weary of his mysterious, unavailing passion, would return to
her, and, if he found her constant, notwithstanding his express orders,
would reward her devotion, not by marriage, for the poor girl had lost
her last illusion in that regard, but by some remnant of esteem and
compassion which she might take for a resurrection of his former love.
It was such thoughts as these which made Scozzone sad and thoughtful,
and caused her to feel remorse.
In the midst of her silent reverie, she started and raised her head. She
heard a light step on the stairway, and the next moment a key was
rapidly turned in the lock, and the door opened.
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