Parent and child -- Fiction; Sardinia (Italy) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction
Anania approached the bed; cautiously as if fearing to wake her, he
uncovered the corpse. A handkerchief covered with spots of darkened
blood, already dry, swathed the neck, passed under the chin, over the
ears, and was knotted among the thick black hair. Within this tragic
circle the face was drawn in grey, the mouth still contorted with the
death spasm. The vitreous line of the eyes was visible through the
heavy, half-shut lids.
Anania understood that she had severed the carotid artery. Horrified by
the spots of blood, he at once recovered the dead face; leaving,
however, the hair, which was twisted high on the pillow, partly exposed.
His eyes had darkened with horror, his mouth writhed as if in mimicry of
the contortion of the dead woman's lips.
"My God! my God! this is awful!" he said, wringing his hands, and
twisting his fingers. "Blood! She has shed her blood! How did she do it?
How was she able to do it? She has cut her throat! How horrible! How
wrong, how wrong I have been. Oh! my God! No, Aunt Grathia, don't shut
the window! I am stifled. It was I who bade her kill herself!"
He sobbed fearlessly--suffocated by remorse and horror. "She has died in
despair, and I did not say to her one word of comfort. She was my mother
after all, and she suffered in bringing me into the world! And I--have
killed her, and I--still live!"
Never as at that moment before the terrible mystery of death had he felt
all the greatness, all the value of life. To live! Was it not enough to
live--to move, to feel the perfumed breeze of the serene night--in order
to be happy? Life! the most beautiful, the most sublime thing which an
eternal and infinite will could create! And he lived; and he owed his
life to the miserable creature who lay before him, deprived of this
highest good! How was it he had never thought of that? Ah! he had never
understood the value of life, because he had never seen the horror and
the emptiness of death. And now she, she alone, had taken upon herself
the task of revealing to him, by the shock of her death, the supreme joy
of Life. She, at the price of her own life, had given him birth a second
time; and this new moral life was immeasurably greater than the first.
A veil fell from his eyes. He saw the contemptibleness of his passions,
of his past griefs and hatreds. Had he suffered because of his mother's
sin? Fool! What did that matter? What mattered a fact so trifling in
comparison with the greatness of life? And because Olì had given him
life, must she not represent to him the kindest of human creatures, to
whom he must be eternally grateful, whom he must always love?
He sobbed still, his heart filled with strange anguish through which
came to him the joy of mere life. Yes, he suffered; therefore he lived.
The widow drew to his side, took his wrung hands in hers, comforted and
encouraged him.
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