Asphodel : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Asphodel : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
He recalled, with unspeakable pain, her pale distressed face that
day of their first meeting at South Hill; the absolute horror in her
widely-opened eyes; the deadly coldness of her trembling hand. Why had
she called her boat by that ridiculous name: and why had she been so
anxious to cancel it? The thought of those things disturbed his peace.
She was so lovely, so innocent, so wild, so wilful.
‘My bright spirit of the woods,’ he said to himself, ‘I should like
your fate to be happy. And yet—and yet—’
He dared not shape his thought further, but the question was in his
mind: ‘Would I like her fate to be far apart from mine?’
Why had she rejected Edgar Turchill, a man so honestly, so obviously
devoted to her?—able, one might suppose, to sympathise with all her
girlish fancies, to gratify every whim.
‘She ought to like him; she must be made to like him,’ he said to
himself, his heart suddenly aglow with virtuous, almost heroical
resolve.
His heart had thrilled that night in the shadow of the walnut boughs
when he heard Daphne’s contemptuous rejection of her lover. He had
been guiltily glad. And yet he was ready to do his duty: he was eager
to play the mediator, and win the girl for that true-hearted lover. He
meant to be loyal.
‘Poor Daphne!’ he sighed. ‘Her cradle was shadowed by a guilty mother’s
folly. She had been cheated out of her father’s love. She need have
something good in this life to make amends for all she has lost. Edgar
would make an admirable husband.’
The _Kelpie_ turned her nose towards home next day; and soon Gerald was
dreamily watching the play of sunbeam and shadow on the heathery slopes
above the Kyles of Bute, very near Greenock, and the station and the
express train that was to carry him home. He turned his back almost
reluctantly on the sea life, the unfettered bachelor habits. Though he
longed to see Madoline again, almost as fondly as he had longed for her
four months ago when he was leaving Bergen, yet there was a curious
indefinable pain mingled with the lover’s yearning. An image thrust
itself between him and his own true love; a haunting shape was mingled
with all his dreams of the future.
‘Pray God she may marry soon, and have children, and get matronly and
dull and stupid!’ he said to himself savagely; ‘and then I shall forget
the dryad of Fontainebleau.’
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