Asphodel : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Asphodel : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
‘It shall be a talisman,’ she said to herself. ‘White gift from a white
soul, pure and perfect as the giver. Yes, it shall be a charm. I will
sin no more. I will think of him no more of whom to think is sin. I
will shut him out of my heart. My love, I will forget you! My love, who
held my hand that summer day, and read my fate there—an evil fate—yes,
for is it not evil to love you? my love, who stole my heart with sweet
low words and magical looks—looks and words that meant nothing to you,
but all the world—more than the world—to me. Oh, I must find some way
of forgetting you. I must teach myself to be proud. It is so mean, so
degrading, to go on loving where I have never been loved. If he knew
it, how he would despise me! I would die rather than he should know!’
Hard to face a new-born year in such a temper as this, with a heart
heavily burdened by a fatal secret; all the world, to outward seeming,
smiles and sunshine. For what care could such a girl as Daphne have, a
girl who had no more need for the serious consideration of life than
the lilies have? All without sunshine and turtle-doves; all within,
darkness and scorpions.
When she was dressed, save for the putting on of her warm winter gown,
Daphne clasped the necklace round her throat. The pearls were not
whiter or more perfectly shaped than the neck they clasped.
‘I must wear my talisman always,’ she thought, as she fastened the
snap. ‘Let me be like the prince in the fairy tale, whose ring used to
remind him by a sharp little stab when he was drifting into sin.’
She went downstairs in a somewhat more cheerful mood than that of her
first awaking. There was comfort in the pearls. She kissed her sister
lovingly, kneeling by her side as she thanked her for the New Year’s
gift. There was an open jewel-case on the breakfast-table, and beside
it a basket of summer flowers—a basket that had come straight from the
sunny south, from the winterless flower-gardens on the shores of the
Mediterranean.
Daphne looked at the jewels first—a low thing in human nature, but
inevitable. The case contained a sapphire cross, the stones large and
lustrous, perfect in their deep azure, and set in the lightest, most
delicate mounting—a cross which a princess might hold choicest amongst
all her jewels. The flowers were roses, camellias, violets, and a
curious thorny-stemmed orange-blossom.
‘Oh, Lina,’ cried Daphne; ‘orange-blossom with thorns! Isn’t that an
evil omen?’
‘I hope not, dear, but I like the other kind best. This is almost too
spiky to put in a flower-glass. But wasn’t it good of Gerald to get
these flowers sent over from Nice for a New Year’s greeting?’
‘Oh, it was he who sent them?’
‘Who else? There was a little note at the bottom of the basket; and
see, this lovely camellia bud is labelled “For Daphne.”’
‘“There’s rue for you,”’ quoted Daphne, with her half bitter smile.
‘Yes, it was very polite of him to remember my existence.’
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