Asphodel : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Asphodel : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
How full of happy fancies the young man’s mind was as they drove
through the lanes and cross-country roads to Hawksyard under that
brilliant sky, so peopled with worlds of light—‘gods, or the abodes of
gods;’ he cared to-night no more than Sardanapalus what those stars
might be—with now a view of distant hills, far away towards the famous
Wrekin, a cloudlike spot in the extreme distance, and now vivid gleams
of the nearer river, glittering under those glittering stars.
‘Isn’t it a delicious night, mother?’ he cried, and only a gentle
snore—a snore expressive of the blissfulness of repose after
exertion—breathed from the matronly mass of furred cloak and hood.
He was quite alone—glad to be alone—alone with his new sense of
happiness, and the starry night, and the image of his dear love.
She had spoken him fair; she meant to make him happier than man ever
was upon earth, since the earth could have produced but one Daphne.
She must have meant something by those delicious words, that sweet
spontaneous praise. Unsolicited she had taken his hand and pressed
it with affectionate warmth—she who had been so cold to him—she who
had never evinced one touch of tender feeling before; only a frank,
sisterly kindness, which was more galling than cruelty. And to-night
she had lifted up her eyes and looked at him—eyes so mournfully sweet,
so exquisitely beautiful.
‘My angel, that marble heart is melted at last,’ he said to himself.
‘Who would not be constant, for such a reward?’
He had only been in love with Daphne a little over six months, yet it
seemed to him now that in that half year lay the drama of his life.
All that went before had been only prologue. True that he had fancied
himself in love with Madoline—the lovely and gracious lady of his
youthful dreams—but this was but the false light that comes before
the dawn. He felt some touch of shame at having been so deceived
as to his own feelings. He remembered that afternoon in the meadows
between South Hill and Arden Rectory, when he had poured his woes
into Daphne’s sympathising ears; when she, his idol of to-night, his
idol for evermore, had seemed to him only a pretty school-girl in a
muslin frock. Was she the same Daphne? Was he the same Edgar? She who
now was a goddess in his sight. He who wondered that he could ever
have cared for any other woman. The disciple of Condillac, when he
sits himself down seriously to think out the question whether the
rose which he touches and smells is really an independent existence,
or only exists in relation to his own senses, was never in a more
bewildered condition than honest Edgar Turchill when he remembered how
devotedly, despairingly, undyingly, he had once loved—or fancied that
he loved—Madoline.
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